i Relapsed after 118 days ......

How is the progress gone? This is not binary. Think in terms of frequency.

Just pick yourself up and continue on your journey, you'll do just fine.

 

I repeat that Streak number is an illusion, the important part is the experience of NoFap. Then continue to abstain for !ore 118 days a nd relapse again, it will not change the recovery you pratice.

 

I can relate to the feeling that you dont want to do m och p, but there is something in your body/mind that tries to bring you back eventhough you dont want it anymore. I think that it's the old self, the old mind/body that is doing this. That the new you has not been fully created.

It's very unpleasent and i sometimes feel like im going mad.

 

Hey, like my latest status message says, progress is not linear. It's okay. Focus entirely on not going on a binge, that's the most important part. If you binge, the damage increases exponentially. If you relapse just this once and manage to get back on that horse, chances are you'll keep the benefits and this will only be a minor setback. You did go 118 without relapsing, after all. The transformation is there, it is not lost. Stay strong and don't give up.