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Porn has ruined my life.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by brojack3, Aug 7, 2020.

  1. brojack3

    brojack3 New Fapstronaut

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    Hi people, just wanna get this off my chest, don't have to listen if you don't want to.
    I started looking at porn in year 7 after a friend kept telling me about how he masturbates and stuff all the time. He was a good friend of mine so I listened to him and tried it for myself. It was amazing. From then on I was hooked. Then without realising it took a scary hold on my life. I started to not exercise, not want to hang with people, I became socially anxious and reserved. I also lost interest in my hobbies and started playing video games instead. This also affected my interest in doing well at school. This combination of harmful lazy behaviour drove me to being slightly less happy everyday. Before I was a very bright-eyed kid and people enjoyed my company, they didn't seem to now that I was a moody loner. Eventually I drove myself to the point of social isolation, didn't talk to anyone for months, hardly even talked to my family. This was my lowest point, I wanted to escape it but I didn't know how. I was depressed, had anxiety and felt like suicide was becoming a more viable option. It was after year 8 had finished that I realised things needed to change. I figured I needed to get healthy again, I started eating well, exercising somewhat and made an effort to talk to people. It was daunting, I had become so used to not doing these things that they were now hard for me. Something that as a kid came naturally to me, I loved playing sports, hanging out with friends and spending time with my family. The one thing I failed to realise was that porn was the biggest contributing factor to the state I was in. So despite re-doing all these positive things I was still anxious, depressed and socially inept. I just couldn't put a finger on why I was still like this. This brought me to wanting to go to boarding school. I convinced my parents and they let me. At first boarding school seemed great, but it slowly turned into an unhealthy environment. I took up drinking and smoking because I thought it would relieve my mental health issues, even if it was temporary. Then I started hanging out with dimwits that I would have never hanged out with before. They influenced me to do bad things. I thought I was cool for doing them. I was failing school and still had mental health problems. Why had my life become so terrible? Then at the start of this year I figured it out. It all seemed so obvious now. I found out about noFap and I began abstaining. I relapsed here and there but soon I was feeling better then ever, my daily anxiety was gone, I was depressed less often and I was starting to put effort into school. It's been almost half a year since I started noFap, it's been difficult but rewarding. All I can say is I wish I found out earlier, my life would be filled with much less regret and I would still be the same bright-eyed kid I used to be. It's never too late to stop. I hope that I will find my self again and get on the right track I was supposed to be on. I am extremely thankful for this community. Keep doing good work guys and spread the message more, it can save lives.
     
  2. ~Animo~

    ~Animo~ Fapstronaut

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    You will find yourself again but better than before. Good luck!
     
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  3. Welcome to NoFap brother. Take your life back.
     
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