I Might Need Some Help

I relapsed yesterday after only a 6-day streak. This time around when i started with the thought of not fapping for my own benefit, to improve myself. Earlier the largest streak that I've recorded was for 12 days which was not because I didn't want to fap but because i saw some really sad anime and i think i got depressed and didn't fap but this time around i had literally stop the urge every time.
After only two days i was able to see myself less grumpier than usual and was able to figure out that i fapped after attending my online university classes in my bed. I resisted the thought of watching porn, then from that "I have strong will power, i can watch porn and not masturbate. Ill be fine" and after a few videos i ended up watching MO'ing.
Sleeping at night was a huge issue for 1st 4-days but then on the 5th day i was to sleep within 20-30 mins from previous 1-2 hours. Also the emergency button was huge huge help to get rid of the urge during the 1st 4-days.
I've started the journey again. But this I'll make sure i use the bed only while sleeping.
Thanks for the support guys. If there's a way for me to improve in any way, do help me with that i would love that. Thanks.

 

Thank you very much! I am trying my best. Now that i know i want to quit, the urges arise alot, trying to find a way to fight that.
Lets do our best!

 

Thank you! The amount of year you ve spent watching porn does effect the recovery but i think it is all about the our mindset and effort we put. I used to think i can quit whenever i can when is was younger but that was a mistake now that ive realised that. But we can do this so lets do our best.