Joined 2 years ago but was never active, hoping to start fresh today

I'm 34, Married 14 years next month, 2 Amazing boys 10 & 12. I understand this org is not based on any religion, preference, etc. However, my identity is in Christ so wanted to share that as well. I am a Christian and my wife and I have served in various parts of ministry since we were teens. Worship, Youth, Small Group, Etc. Of course, with that comes shame that I put on myself for struggling with porn. I believe I am forgiven by grace, but I have a hard time with my shame. I have thought countless times, I finally beat this thing! I'd go months and months on a purge then have binge. Yesterday and today was that binge and I am not looking to make that into a whole weekend bender.

I am not sure what I am going to do next, but at least wanted to start by sharing somewhere that I had relapsed.

Here are of the things I have read, tried, done, etc.

Books:

Every Man’s Battle
Every Man God’s Man
Surfing for God
Lust free in 31 days
Not even a hint
How to slay the dragon of lust
Finally Free
Worthy of Her Trust
Breaking the Cycle
Clean


Program, Videos, Other:

Fortify
Pure Desire Podcast
Countless youtube videos
Setting Captives Free Program and Podcast
Breaking Free Virtual Summit



So as you can see, I’ve been battling for a long time and trying a lot of things. Any encouragement is greatly appreciate.

Also, help me around this site. What should I do here next? Are there any free accountability groups?

Also, if you are living in freedom, what has worked for you?

Thanks!

 

Just checking in to say it's been a good few days

 

Thank you for the reply and tips

 

Had 12 days on the tracker, Messed up today, got on reddit and ended up go where I shouldn't on there, restarting the tracker