THE 100 DAY SPARTAN CHALLENGE (OPEN)

Day 0

yesterday I relapsed again, this sucks !!, I feel that I am worse than when I started, undoubtedly I am in a self-destructive cycle where nothing matters to me.

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Day 1/100

 

I don't think you are worse than when you started. You're here. Fast story, for what it's worth. I started to have physical issues of PIED in late 2017/early 2018. Eventually found NoFap site, read up on everything and decided to quit PMO for life. Made a journal, checked in for about 30-45 days or so. Had a decent little 3 week streak too. One day I fapped, and fapped again, and forgot to log my relapse, and then didn't come back to check in. That was June 2018. I rode that relapse and reverted to the PMO life for a year and a half. DEC 2019 a wake up call hit me hard. I decided I needed to do this. Basically started around New Year. As you can see in my signature I have had some issues. 50+ days of Porn and a few days of only MO. BUT... look closer. Almost 180 days now clean this year. Almost half of a year, NOT FAPPING. This is a 30 year habit for me. And I am beating it. Slow and steady. I am here, I have relapsed 16 different times this year. Some for a day, once for 11 days (Yikes, right?). But I am here. Owning it. Working on it. And even though I haven't had the magical 90 days reboot... my brain IS being rewired. Many days I do not think of Porn. The closest I get to the matter is usually on this forum, checking in and reading about/writing about PMO habits. Lots of days I wake up, work through the day, and go to sleep without even a flicker of an urge to look at porn, or grab myself for a fap session.
So... unless you have literally quit, told everyone you know porn is great, and sprouted a second dick to MO with - YOU ARE NOT WORSE than when you arrived. Got it?

 

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Sending strength to you man...

 

Day 17

 

thank you friend, great achievements that you have reaped. Maybe now I feel like rubbish about myself but I know I have to fight and keep going.

 

Day 3,4,5.

I was unable to check in yesterday and the day before as I was out of town with my family. I brought my laptop but I ended up offline the entire weekend.

Which is a good thing.

O Sacred Heart of Jesus I place All My trust in you.

 

Checking day 112. Thanks for all your support folks. Have a great week ahead

 

Day 35.

 

Day 2

 

Checking in Day Twenty.

 

DAY 1!

Here we go again! to fight! : )

 

one day at a time, become stronger and stronger everyday

 

day eight

yeah finally, pass the first 7 days

thank god

 

18/100 done.

A little day 19 humor. Somebody commenting on my long time being in the military. My reply is gold.

 

Day 2.

 

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Day 05 Let's go

 

Day 18