Different Stages of Flatline - What is flatline

Hi
So the first time I ever ejaculated was about 5 years ago, 2015. I was only 14. I was watching porn and it was driving me insane I didn’t know what to do. Then I got some lube and there; my first ever ejaculation.
Ever since then, I have been masturbating to pornography up until now. I could masturbate 3-6 times a day. Not every single day but I did it enough times to say call it a lifestyle. Over the years I noticed my taste in porn changed. I began to like extreme videos where women are being abused, choked and all that.
In high school, when a girl tried to give me head. She noticed my erection was fading out and I was so embarrassed I didn’t know what was going on. She did it another time and same result.
Fast forward into university, my first day in school I had my room to myself and invited this girl over. We talked and we started to get intimate. She also gave me head which my erection was still fading out thus making it boring. I didn’t cum. She also tried to ride me but my dick wouldn’t stay erect enough for her to get on. I began to worry so badly. I started googling about it and then I found nofap and the like. I got engaged in the 90 day reboot challenge and I did over a 100 days. (I wasn’t very disciplined I must say during these 100 days as I was still playing with my dick and watching porn in small quantity I just didn’t masturbate). and then I finally relapsed. I went back to my old lifestyle. After a while I got tired of the addiction and very depressed because I was thinking of how i’ll have kids in the future and all that. I tried to reboot on multiple attempts but still eventually relapsed. I did 60 days, 25 days, 47 days etc. I had multiple attempts with girls and still failed. They were all embarrassing. My most recent streak lasted for the whole of September this year after which I relapsed back in early October. I went back to watching hardcore porn videos. It was like i was trapped. A place of no return, as I set my eyes on these videos I can’t help but to beat my dick. I have started another streak since I turned 20 years old in late October. I have decided to not masturbate from now on. Cos I don’t want to enter my 20s with this sort of behavior.
I’m honestly not sure about going through flatline but for sure there were times during my reboot were i felt I had a dead dick. also there were days that I could get about 70% erection after bathing or just laying in bed looking at nice girls on social media or thinking of getting intimate with girls.


im really scared but somehow calm because the message on here give me hope. I just hope I would be fully recovered by the next few months so I can have a normal life again.
This addiction has restricted me from knowing my true self. I don’t know whether I would call myself an introvert or it’s just porn that has made me like that because I hardly and almost never have interest in socializing.
I want to be healed and free from this bondage of pornography

 

did you make it through?

 

Are not getting morning woods is a sign of flat line

but getting some erections during day time rarely......Is it a good sign.....Please tell

 

Who is else in coasting flatline?

 

Mine seem to ebb and flow a bit. Then- bam!- one morning I am out of it. Have to drink coffee and maybe take a nootropic to get through work. Gotta do what needs to be done.