Persistence is key - How I elevated my recovery

Good job man! Every urge ignored is a victory! Also congrats on the 96 days!

 

I am sorry to hear that you had the toughest day yesterday (so far) on your streak. There comes a point in time when a tsunami strikes us with difficulty when we least expect it and/or when we did nothing out of the ordinary. It is difficult to say, but it is almost like our minds want to test us with this and see how we react. Well, you did forget to do one thing in your inventory: message the group and tell us what was going on. I know you said that you had a rough day, but I am sure that any of us would have been happy to help you in a heartbeat and help get you through the anxiety. I know what you felt first hand because I used to suffer from bad anxiety and I could tell when a panic attack was about to happen and prepared for it so that the impact would be less severe, but that is a different position than what you are saying here.

It is tough to handle and you have a sense of dread that comes over you knowing that you could have a bad storm, but fortunately, you did not and you came through stronger than what you were. I am not sure if it will return but know that you are not alone and you have an amazing group that is willing to help you out in a heartbeat. Of course, surrounding porn is a NO. It is off the table. You can live life without it and you do not need it. We become so used to the PMO bubble once when are exposed to it that it is impossible to shatter it completely on our first try. It takes months, sometimes years to undo, and be able to experience life as it truly is- away from the horrors and brutality of fantasy and technological screens.

The transition is difficult, as you say, but it is worth it. Yet, should life be just "vanilla" though? What about other flavors, like cherry or mint? Should it be basic in flavor or should living a good life free of PMO be able to have flavor in it to bring variety into the mix? It may be hard to determine what you want to commit yourself to, but I believe that you are just as capable of doing it as what I can. I did a good job of not letting the past define me once before and I can do it again. We all are walking on the right path, but it is hard to determine how strong the path can be. Only we can be capable of making the path stable for us to continue uninterrupted or we find ourselves on a rocky path with obstacles that makes the journey more difficult.

You may not be there, but I can say that you have traveled a long way since I first joined the group in November-December of last year. I am not sure how long you had joined the group before I did, but I am proud of the person you have become and how you keep your eyes on the long term goal and embrace said goals every single day. Yes, continue to make it, dream it, love it, and live it. Embrace it all, my friend. I hope that you are careful when you walk through that fire since I do not want you to become scorched beyond recognition, haha. I feel so motivated by your words right now that it brings a smile to my face. I feel stronger and determined to say yes to my life and future. I feel determined to pick up my cross again and go forward, determined to succeed this time, and seek the right interests to help me. I already have the best group of people that can lift me and hold me accountable so I do not have to search far for it. Thank you for posting this and getting my day a much-needed shaking and motivation for the life ahead. c:

 

Huge congrats dude, I passed 32 days 2 weeks back and I was being mentally mutilated. Depression, anxiety, thinking about porn and sex ALL day... I caved. First time I got that far too but it just means I have to be stronger. I have learned that while I may be strong and having a muscular body is "nice", it´s not true strength. It comes from within! Really nice post dude, wish you the best!

 

Yes to life and yes to the future

 

Good reminder!

 

Hi any help pls ..
i am 180 days nofap . Untill 120 days of nofap i was having all sort of sexual urges , even i get triggered from slightest of sexual thought. I was having urges of womens body ass bj etc . After i completion of 120 days i felt tht all those urges subsided and felt to hav not care about womens body. But wat happened next is my mind start to have anal urges and now even untill now it hasnt gone and any women i see i start to have imagine anal sex with her . Though it has geting less i feel .
Pls any help regarding it . Why i al having them or will it ever go

 

The Legend has spoken. Keep shuffling shuffledude88!

 

Have you had sex in those 180 days? You are probably just horny

 

Yeah bro,
thanks for this uplifting post, I just relapsed but these words came at the right time,

From Now On I’m PMO Free.

 

Thanks for this I needed to hear something to cheer me up and I am glad I found this thread.

 

Great fight . Im glad you made it . Keep strong. !

 

You already encourage me, man. You encourage me every day. You inspire me every day. You motivate me every day. You teach me so much. The entire group does. I think I said last year that I viewed this as a chess game where I have to stay one step ahead of my opponent, PMO, and not make any hasty moves if I was to back him into a corner they could not get out of instead of the other way around. I used to be big on the counter but I no longer focus on the numbers. I focus on the mentality and how I am feeling. I consider it a good week if I am strong and happy, a bad week if I am weak and unhappy. A number is just a number. A routine is just a routine. You can do all of these things but it may not reflect the progress you are making. To make good progress, you have to be willing to go to the place no one goes and confront yourself. You have to be brutally honest with yourself and evaluate where you are at in life. I can add to what you are saying though this: If you are lying about your progress. Stop. Start over and be honest because if you continue to lie, your heart will corrupt your brain and you will find yourself in a worse situation than where you began.

So many people do miss this so it is wonderful for you to say what hardly anyone else will say! You speak what needs to be heard, not what people want to hear- a clear difference. There are always going to be loopholes that we find unexpected, but we can work hard to close those gaps and make sure they never come back to tempt us. At one point, I might have felt sorry for myself and rationalize a slip-up, but you know that I never do such a thing now. I owe any slip-ups I make and I admit responsibility right away. I am upfront and honest and it may be tough right away, but it makes me a better person. It makes you a better person. It makes everyone in the group a better person. Thank you for posting this because it started my day off on the right track and gave me a heavy dose of inspiration.

 

I'm glad to hear that!

 

dude....this is a great success story, man! I loved this post! Lot of great thoughts.You are a great writer. I hope to see more posts from you. Do u have a journal?

 

Congrats and thanks for this post