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Almost 4 weeks

Discussion in 'Compulsive Sexual Behavior' started by DiegoSR, Aug 8, 2020.

  1. Aug 8, 2020 #1
    DiegoSR

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    Hi everybody!

    my nofap and semen retention journey is about to reach the 4th week (right now: 26 days of NOFAP - longest streak ever = 60 days). I don't feel "great" due to economic problems but my mood is positive, thanks to this challenge. In facts every time i look at my calendar, which i update every day, i fell very proud of myself. I'm strongly motivated to reach 90 days of semen retention

    But there is a point i want to ask you, NOFAP veterans, about this nofap journey.

    Yesterday I was alone at home (these days i'm on holidays at home for two weeks, one week left, and sometimes i feel bored and lonely, but that's not the main problem) and i turned on my notebook, which is connected with the TV, and started to watch a site where girls show their nude bodies in a videochat with people tipping them. I used to watch this site to fap, like one or two years ago.

    What i don't understand is that i used this site (not only yesterday) to have an erection and play with it for a while but suddently i remember my challenge and quit everything. Then, an hour later the cycle repeated for 3/4 times. The NOFAP motivation is actually stronger than the urge, but i'm afraid that some day i will relapse... and what is strange to me is this urge to watch this website

    Is this normal? Have you lived the same experience? When will these urges go away?

    Thanks guys!
    Have a nice day
     
    DiegoSR, Aug 8, 2020
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  2. Aug 8, 2020 #2
    DrabToLight

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    Hey @DiegoSR ,

    Everyone defines their sobriety from the lie that is Porn in their own way. So, I have no right to tell you if what you are doing is normal.

    I can only offer you my own experience, strength, and hope.

    My journey requires no porn and its lies. I know that many people think getting an erection to porn and even stroking is good as long as they don't have an orgasm. That would not work for me. Even watching porn and not getting an erection (which would be difficult to do) would be a relapse in the program I follow.

    Cam sites are porn sites for me. I have to admit that I wasn't really into them. But, when I was watching the lie of porn, I stumbled across some of them.

    There is no way for me to tell you that pulling up a porn site (cam site), getting an erection, and then stroking it is a relapse for you. I can tell you that if I did that, I would need to be honest with myself and I would consider it a relapse for me.

    You ask if it is normal. I think of all porn as a lie that warps my brain - therefore for me, it would not be normal.
     
    DrabToLight, Aug 8, 2020
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  3. Aug 12, 2020 #3
    DiegoSR

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    Hi! And thank you for your reply

    I'm my case, the most important thing is semen retention, there was no problem if i watched porn.
    I don't consider what happened a fail, or a relapse, because despite the excitement of that moment, i managed to say no and stop, not once but 3 times.
    For me this is a win, never happened before - this showed me the strong motivation

    BUT i understand now what you called "lies of porn", that this is wrong - watching porn when i'm bored and alone even if i don't fap, because there is the risk of a relapse, and this must not happen (now 30 days of NOFAP).
    I'm very motivated to reach 90 days and to "protect" my streak

    NO PORN IS THE WAY!

    thanks again
     
    DiegoSR, Aug 12, 2020
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  4. Aug 12, 2020 #4
    DrabToLight

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    Hey @DiegoSR ,

    Thank you! Your reply was very appreciated.

    -D2L
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    DrabToLight, Aug 12, 2020
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