The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 14
Started sleeping naked and I much quicker get up from bed I started doing the puzzles again, bought few months ago 3k puzzle, I managed to done half of it few months ago and now getting back. I started eating much more and more often. Before I was sleeping very long and many times I either skipped breakfest or delayed it. I am getting shaped my body again and started feeling better.

2 days ago deceided to block facebook and instagram due me starting spending even more and more time. Since I realise I am picking too much I deceided to make instant action to block me from relapse. You know... its overwhelming, if u dont do anything about it sooner or later u gonna starting dream about sex, watching more and more girls = because u only watch and few days later u are back into hell u dont even know how. Mostly cuz u getting tired and u convience yourself u must do it cuz u are not productive at all. You just give up to it. So I strongly suggest you guys if u ever notice or feel like u not on your track anymore do what u must do. IMO its really important to feel progress. So try to do new staff and make urself better and better each day or few days its up to you of course. For instance :

Read a book 15 minutes before a sleep.

Ye this is what i gonna do today haha

Stay strong

Edit :

This block is only for few days. But I guess I gonna do it more often but still for few days so I dont feel too big pressure on me that I suddanly can't see the world etc. You know, I only try to do it when I feel it is necesarry but IMO we shouldnt cut ourselfes from the society, especially for me its important cuz I live alone and I work in my House so I dont have a lot of company during the day

 

Sorry I relapsed after 155 days

I don't know how to say this but, I relapsed after struggling for 155 days. I still can't digest the fact that I relapsed few minutes ago. Like nothing came to my mind, my companions, my streak, challenges I am into, my goals...

Today was a bit odd day for me, like totally off from those 155 days. Today I was not in my studying room because there was some work going on, so I studied in another room in which I was sitting alone. Generally when I study in my room there is a person sitting in my room. And if not then after seeing the mountain of books I control the urge easily. But today it wasn't the case. No books in my room today. Also when I started semen retention after 100 days, I completely isolated myself from any sexual content, and then I slowly controlled my mind. But for the last few days that sexual energy was annoying me so much. Like I was not getting any nighfalls or wet dreams. That energy was trapped. I even tried drinking water before sleeping, eating heavy and spicy meals before sleeping, to get a nightfall but I was not getting one. Today I didn't even bathed. When I saw an erotic pic on internet, I thought " let's watch something more erotic so that I can get a nighfall ". After that I saw erotic content, and
I toched my penis a few times and then it ejaculated, like I didn't even fapped but just some touching. And then all that excess stored semen came out. While watching that coming out, I was thinking " Is it real? , did I just relapsed after all those days?", I just became numb for few seconds. And after that I felt very guilty and helpless. Like the thought that I can't see that 155 on my streak for next 5 months makes me very sad.

What happened was truly dissappointing. But I promise you guys that I won't binge now.
Sorry again...

 

Day 10: It's been a stressful week, since our entire system has been down at work due to storms. Things seem to be running okay today, and I'm hoping it stays that way. A lot to get done! Not going to let the stresses get to me though. The last thing I need is to relapse due to that.

 

Day 6. Today I have become one of the Uruk-Hai, and am no longer a lowly orc.

 

Day 20.

I have a bad night, with some erotic dreams. I´m having a bad day, too. Hope some exercise this evening will help. The last days I´m using the phone in excess.

St. John of the Cross, pray for us.

 

[QUOTE = "RiseToGreatness, post: 2247888, member: 88699"] Aqui está a jornada completa, meus irmãos. Vamos lá!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ATTACH = cheio] 23233 [/ ATTACH] [/ QUOTE]
Olá, Rise! eu aceito o desafio, pela sombra de Mordor, eu sou um Uruk-Hai!

 

Sorry guys. I reset again. Day 1.

 

Sorry this happened, brother, but thanks for telling us your story so we can all learn. 155 days is quite the achievement. Good luck with the next attempt.

 

As forças de Sauron realmente são seduzível, mas você é mais forte amigo. Quando se sentir quase recaindo, corra como um Hobbit até nós.

 

Day 45 is achieved, and halfway to my first goal!

I am feeling better than my PMO days, but I am really struggling with no libido and still no erections.No urges at all, no morning wood and I can't get an erection just masturbating. I probably could with porn though. Does anyone have advice? I am just going to keep going no PMO. But it is really scary. Keep going fellowship, we can achieve our goals.

 

Irmão, repare na evolução: você se sente culpado, isso é positivo, pois você conseguiu mudar seu pensamento, experimentou uma vida sem PMO e seus benefícios, você pode ter feito hoje, mas não fará de novo pelos próximos longos dias, seu corpo aos poucos está mudando para ficar livre desse vício para sempre.

 

DAY 2
Feeling allured to the pornography. Going to switch off every device after this reply. Damn! It's hard but I won't stop. That's why I'm here, XO

 

I'm new to the forum. I just saw
(4 days) in THE LORD OF THE RINGS CHALLENGE

 

Sorry can't understand your language

 

Whyat have u changed in your life so far buddy? 45 days seems to be long to aquire changes.

 

Bro... 155 days. . Respect
.

 

92 days done. Good luck everyone!

 

Well I guess I have to start meditating. I will figure out how to do it. Good video none the less.

I am on day 8 now. I think the morning urges are actually just erotic dreams. It was more vivid this morning but I was able to get out of danger of relapse.

 

Imagine lying in bed after relapsing and feeling empty and depressed. Cos that's what PMO has to offer.

 

Day 106. Last night I dreamt that these little devils were tempting me to reset and on further reflection the whole dream had an infantile air about it, and is that's what pm is to me, childish. In the dream, I dreamt that I got on the nofap forum to combat the urge and then I awoke.

I find it more than coincidence that a number of you, @Ciceron and @Brahmachari 17 come to mind especially, either reset or were having a rough couple of nights in your own way. Your own way perhaps, but certainly not on your own. My prayers go out to you.