Addicted/Hooked on trans porn.

Hello @Killex, welcome to the forum.

I have similair issues. I am still battling these issues. Its more than porn, its more than addiction, its more than self hate. It's the way things are and what can I do. I can truly do nothing. I can improve myself. I can work out, meditate, socialise but their is always going to be something which tears you apart. Because it knows how to and it will do it for the sake of it. So then what? What can we do but just be a witness to this act of self destruction.

It's easy to hear an supportive answer to these truly personal and painful questions. I can easily say to go meditate, go have a cold shower. But will it get you to the place you want to be? No. The best I can offer you is to suggest for you to see your circumstance for what it is. Understand it and be attuned to your feelings. Dont be scared of the other side and possibly you may come across some of the truth you ahve been searching for.

I'm currently in a similair situation as you and this is how I am now addressing it.

 

It is the story of so many people here.
No ,there is nothing wrong with you.
Try to go on hardmode if you want to enjoy your relationship.
Go 6 - 12 months with only once a month orgasm -with her.
Nothing is fixed with the brain. It is always changing.

 

I have been wondering if I am gay for watching transwoman porn. From reading these responses I am not gay. I do feel guilt for watching it. I am not alone.

 

You just have to stop watching it.

I've stopped watching porn and I go on about my life . Libido is down, but I am naturally attracted to women. I'm not gay it's that simple. But when you watch that crap it tricks your brain..you see a female but it's a really weird taboo thing.

Alot of the time I'm absolutely grossed out by it . But we the you see one.that looks so feminine and oh look she's fucking another female . The ques are all there except it's setting you've never seen . Men are visual so much that are brains can be fooled, if you were gay you'd be watching guys. But stop watching that shit . Because all of the above , you are actually jerking to a dude which is completely fucked up.

Porn is not real life. Quit porn and live in reality.

Trust me it's the only way.

I can go easy without porn and especially that shit it was difficult at one stage because I had become addicted to it. Trust me it doesn't have much of a hold on you once you actually stop. The reason why it has a hold on you is because your freaking out about it in your head. Because it's not natural. Your not into men you've already said that. This is a trick on our stupid reptile brains.

Quit and it's smooth sailing . Trust me. I'll fap to it the odd time and am grossed out but bored of porn. It takes finding the right one the right seen , one.that looks.like a really hot girl and she's fucking another girl , it's something my brain doesn't know what to do. At the end there's always disgust and remorse, but that's porn. And this one is the worst it's fucking gross.

The sooner you stop the better, your just putting visual images in your head that you really don't want. A chick with a dick. Your actually getting flashbacks of the male part , intrusive and fucking gross, that's why straight dudes start freaking out about it.

Just stop watching it, it's that simple

When I watched that shit , the hocd was awful thinking you could be gay. Since I stopped . I have absolutely no hocd. If there were any attraction I would know at this point.

Porn bro, trick on your brain.

Stop

 

Stop Now! I had sex with a transsexual and it still haunts me. It was not enjoyable it hurt. I can only hope I didn't do permanent damage to myself.

 

I've been struggling with the same issue. Finally getting some clarity, it does get better.

 

A few points for consideration, @Killex. Not one of these is definitive or authoritative; each is based on my own personal experience. With this is mind, please take these for what they might be worth:

• In spite of what you might think, there is nothing wrong with you.
• In spite of what is sometimes implied around here, there is nothing wrong with being attracted to transexuals.
• This said, it is very possible that, as a porn addict, you do not have a clear sense of what genuinely attracts and / or arouses you. It is very likely, in other words, that you don't have a clear sense of what you really like sexually because porn messes this up. Period. Full stop.

Given all this, I suggest you put the question of who and / or what you are or are not attracted to aside for a while. In this time, concentrate on getting away from all forms of pornography. Once you've been clean for a while, once your perceptions have cleared up, I'm guessing all those who and / or what questions will kind of make themselves apparent.

Best of luck with this. Keep doing the next right thing.