Day 30 succeeded by a 108 day streak.

Hello guys last relapse totally broke me from inside I was completely doomed. had been in depression for days but thankfully that painful phase has passed. and at that time the support which you guys provided here in this forum was remarkable and because of that I could manage to forgive myself.
since then I did 2 things
1. I did not do multi relapses. I only edged and relapsed once only on that unlucky night of day 108.
2. I tried to keep it as hard as possible. tried to keep my this new streak on monk mode most of the time which means no social media no talk with female friends and no music as well. I also tried to avoid sweet or sugary dishes which means as less dopamine as possible.
right now I am on a very strong flatline but still I can feel the positivity in the world around me and not much bad happened so far. Which means even after relapsing some benifits of my past streak are carrying forward to my new streak perhaps because I have been very disciplined throughout my second streak.
So yeah my message to everyone out there who relapsed please do not multi relapse if you relapse its okay just close your phone and reset the counter but do not multi relapse. because the more time you relapse the less benefits you retrieve from your previous streak.
one positive thing I noticed today it is my birthday today and everyone's wishing me birthday so genuinely and vivaciously unlike in the past.

 

thank you!

 

thank you!

 

thanks a lot brother

 

proud of you. keep doing the good work!