My next journey after +400days

Good evening everyone.

I did earlier over 400 days. It was absolutely easy after couple of weeks I would say. After that I relapsed one time during high stress moment in my life. I relapsed with out porn.
I didn't felt super bad after that. Next relapse happened about 30 days after that.
Now i am in a new journey. This is a 25th day.
I'm feeling some urges every day. I am busy and productive but still this happen. I have seen some girl pictures in social media. Maybe I should stop to using instagram. I'm following just naturephotographers and i am also naturephotographer but sometimes there is some girl pictures in some place. Sometimes some fake girl profile bots start follow me but I report them always to the instagram and ofcourse I block them.

I don't know is my brains in normal mood nowadays. 400 day journey was long and awesome trip.
I am a single young man and there is not any sexual actions in my life. I don't hardly miss masturbation or sex. I haven't ever had a real sex. I haven't ever had a girl friend. Porn was the biggest mistake in my life. With only masturbation without porn there would not have been for sure so big problems.
I don't know why i always enjoyed to see that when the girl get orgasm. I had also the panties fetish. Almost always I did it (fapped) on prone position. These steps was the hardest things to get over. And are still. I must avoid the prone position (laying on my stomach). It just remember me too much from my old habits.
Now i am going slowly day by day ahead.
And i hope I could resist my urges. At this time my urges just feel different and higher than in my last +400 day journey. My brains are changed in some way...

Good luck and good night for everyone

 

Okay buddys. I have some good and some negative news.
It's been possible for me to do only one week streaks nowadays. After one week my urges are felt higher than usually.
But I have got orgasm without porn what is positive. I have not fapped but I have touched my prostatis from outside or last time from inside and it happened the O. I don't know what is that. I feel I don't need porn any more. But I don't like about that I've had two O in two weeks. I haven't felt super bad after that. But I feel maybe my social anxiety is a little bit higher than before. Maybe my brains are changed in some way. But I don't like this thing where i am now. I want also quit ejaculations from my life because this is a bull shit.
I have a lot of good plans for the future and i try to be positive almost every day. But I am a sure I must have more sport exercises if I want quit also the ejaculations from my life. Now i am working too much and it can cause the stress for me. So i must find better ways to release it. The sport can actually be a good part for that.
What you think quys should I reset my counter? There's only one week now.
What you think how dangerous these 2 ejaculations was for my brain or my body?
Good luck for everyone. In some day we will win this fucking shit!!