The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Thank you! I hope to find you on the throne of the higher guardians after completing this long journey!

 

97 days

 

Bem-vindo aos novos membros! Use um contador meu amigo.

 

That really hit me and put things in to perspective. Thank you.
It's time to stop taking that easy path!

 

Thank, it's much appreciated.

 

Thank you @RiseToGreatness Your level of engagement with this community is inspiring

 

Day 3 is in the books and Day 4 is wrapping up. Had a family emergency two nights ago and I was the most stressed I've been in a long time. Thankfully all of my family members are back home in one piece. I've been dealing with the stress and aftermath with exercise, cold showers, and actively talking to my friends and family members rather than using PMO like I traditionally would. My weekend is on the horizon so I'm gearing up for some urge surfing and replacement habits (exercise, cooking, reading, video games, phone calls/video chats with friends and family). Here's hoping my next update will be about reaching the one week mark.

 

Yay! I am in. Thanks Today was good. Worked a lot. Maybe too much on my own projects and not enough on the ones I am payed for but... I'll see what I can do with what is left with the day. Taking a walk and praying my rosary for now.

 

Yes, I am very excited to get back to drumming. I hope my wife will still go through with our 1 October appointment to take our next step toward buying a house together. She is very hurt over my having done PM and lied about it for the three years we have known each other. I hope she will forgive me enough to go to the appointment. If not, I will be very sad and worried about whether we can get a house together. I think she will go though. I just desperately need to stay away from porn and masturbation. I need to build trust, which I am learning to do through watching videos on relationships and trust, and reading about it. It seems to be all about communication, or at least mostly. I think I can do this!
Anyway, yes, having a place to set up and play will be a first for me: I have never lived anywhere I could play drums since I was a teenager living with my parents and making excessive amounts of noise in the finished attic. This will be absolutely incredible for me, a huge milestone. I am doing everything in my power to realize this dream.

 

It's day 13 and I am 13 hours from day 14. I went to my new job for the first time today. Tomorrow if I can hold out I will be 2 weeks clean. I have a terrible headache since this morning from doing paperwork and it hasn't left all day. While I was on shift I had urges accompanied with a visible memory of what used to be my favorite erotic video. I didn't act on my urges and I dismissed the memory as something I never want to see again in my mind. I watched some commentary on Ariane Grande's new "WAP" music video and saw some snippets of it. Don't watch that video, it will trigger you. As far as I am concerned that video is porn and is the enemy. I don't ever want to view women as sexual objects like how they are portrayed in that music video. We will see if I do well tonight or if seeing snippets of "WAP" will have the same effect as peaking and bring my streak back to zero. I didn't even watch all the commentary because the imagery was so sexual and just bad. I will check in tomorrow, as for tonight I will write in my Journal and do my nightly routine.

 

I just start the challenge! Day 0

 

Day 9

 

DAY 6 URUK-HAI

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