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PMO RUINED EVERYTHING

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by Demonic 777, Aug 31, 2020.

  1. Demonic 777

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    Im suffering from severe brain fog 4 years now. Deep thinking is severely damaged, my brain is too exhausted to think and rationalize various situations.

    I've lost any sense of ephoria, I'm 24/7 more or less into an anhedonic state. 4 years ago, even thinking of having a gf gave me butterflies in the stomach, now even hugging and kissing with my gf doesnt feel that good.

    My apetite for life and sense of adventure have completely gone. I have forgotten how it is to wake up in the morning and feel enthusiastic about studying or work on a project, or doing something creative or making plans for the future.

    Everything now feels scary or indifferent at the best. It is a struggle just to go on with everyday activities.

    I get hit with panic attacks and derealization episodes, not to mention i feel melancholic and fatigued all day for no reason at all. My life seems pointless with my brain being at this state.

    The only thing that gives me hope is that when I went 14 days into nofap, no pmo, no internet recreational use, i saw a small but noticable improvement in the above symptoms. I imagine that if that went for much longer, I would see bigger improvements, or at least i hope so. I think I'll might have to go 6-9 months no pmo as it is suggested for severe cases like mine. It is had as hell, but my motive is huge.

    If anyone has or had any similar experience, I would more than appreciate their insight on the issue.
     
  2. Austin88

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    Porn contains negative subliminal messages. The whole time while you’re watching porn you’re being bombarded with negativity while you watch other people have sex. Naturally when we’re like this life becomes impossible. Staying sober is super hard but it’s the only way to stay functioning in our society where most people aren’t using porn as a coping mechanism. When we watch porn our addiction reward pathway in our brain gets an excessive amount of dopamine desensitising us to pleasure as the reward center in our brains gets damaged from being in overdrive 24/7. On the other hand when we’re not PMOing life seems like a pointless struggle of going from one pain to the next and brief moments of happiness from time to time. If you have a true addiction like I did (it’s much weaker now) this is truly a vicious cycle. The fact is if you keep this up your girlfriend will leave you for someone that doesn’t PMO. I’m doing my best to fight, but sometimes your best isn’t enough. You have to really go out to beat the addiction because this is one of the hardest things we’ll ever do
     
  3. Demonic 777

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    Thanks alot brother! What about the derealisation please tell me I'll be okay if I leave porn I don't want to develop a mental illness
     
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  4. Austin88

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    If you’re talking about how life doesn’t seem real because it’s miserable I’d say as you start to feel less depressed and enjoy life more you won’t feel flat anymore. Depends on how depressed you are.
     
  5. Demonic 777

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    I don't know how to explain but never got su h feelings so scary and strange.. I am 100% it's because of my over masturbation...
     
  6. When you watch porn and masturbate it damages and alters your prefrontal cortex which is responsible for things like planning, rationalizing, will power, impulse control etc. So the more you watch porn and masturbate the more you will loose all these powers associated with the prefrontal cortex.

    PMO gives the brain a dopamine high. In order to keep receiving this high the brain wants more and more PMO
    which also means it will desensitize the brain over time to all other activities that was once pleasurable.

    One drop of semen is made up of 40 drops of the best blood produced in your body so every time
    you masturbate you are loosing this blood and it will leave the body feeling fatigued. If you do not masturbate for
    at least two weeks then the body will absorb the excess semen to nourish it's tissues etc which will make you healthy and energetic.

    When we drain our life force through masturbation we can get panic attacks and other problems. The semen produced in our body is our very life force. It is part of our masculine energy. The more you build it the more masculine and brave you will be and the more you drain it the more fearful and feminine like you will become.

    As someone struggling with PMO myself I hope this helped you and I hope you recover soon and be the best version of yourself.
     
  7. Demonic 777

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    Thank you so much brooo this helped a lot...I'm scared if I'm developing any illness due to PMO.. I even relapsed today . . I am facing so much Anxiety and depersonalization
     
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  8. Boyish 123

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    I feel you bro but take those relapse as temporary Seatback .Stay strong you can win this
     
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  9. Demonic 777

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    Thank you my brother.. Is it normal? What I'm feeling rn? I am a very heavy PMO addict
     
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  10. Boyish 123

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    Remove that mentality if u wanna beat this nothing is permanent unless u give up
     
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  11. New Art3mis

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    Yes my dude, it's normal. I'm struggling with PMO the same way you do. But I once went 10 days free from this shit and noticed positive changes and I have realised that I have wasted 8 years due to this addiction. PMO is ruining our life man. We need to give it up to live our life to the fullest.
    Let's do it brother.
     
  12. I hate to be the one who says it, but I don't think pmo is the reason for this at all - there's something else bothering you. I know mother fuckers who beat their dick 3x a day and still live a fulfilling life. I don't really believe in the "nofap superpowers" anymore. I merely see it as a willpower challenge now and I've never been better. I've been able to get a job, score dates, eliminate procrastination and make friends without relying on a chunky nofap streak. I guarantee something else is bothering you right now - something beyond pmo.

    I'm not saying nofaps bad, I'm just saying you shouldn't take it so seriously.
     
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  13. Demonic 777

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    Bro it's 100% pmo I have known it and when I abstain I'm totally fine..talked to people who suffered the same as well I just need nofap
     
  14. Demonic 777

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    Yes bro we will make it
     
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  15. youngandsuffering

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    I feel the same. The only thing that's helped for me is hemp flower and real life connections.
     
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  16. Demonic 777

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    You got it from PMO?
     
  17. Fullyawake

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    Fapping only keeps you fapping. Entering the flatline should be the goal.
     
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  18. youngandsuffering

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    Yes. It also made me anti social and weird so hard to make connections with people.
     
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  19. Demonic 777

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    Damn bro we will make it..just hang in there.. what else symptoms? I guarantee you it will be gone in a long streak
     
  20. youngandsuffering

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    Brain fog. Worse eyesight with lots of floaters. Bad mood. Distorted view of reality.
     
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