I can't

How many times have you tried and since when are you trying to reboot?

 

Hey man i know how you feel i have also relapsed an hour ago and it was the first day, yesterday I relapsed after 12 days and binged 5 times.. but at the end head up and let's keep going.

 

No way you are ruined. Im 3 years on nofap fixed PIED and feeling way better than i was back then. You need patience man, and many attempts its a part of the process believe it or not. Its how your brain responds. Do your best to make each streak longer and never give up. Forgive yourself each time you relapse and dont make this relapse a part of yourself because desperation and anxiety brings binging. When you relapse do your best to stay to one (dont binge just because you did it once and you reset your counter- this is BS dont do this and relapse will be a small setback). have realistic goals according to your problem. I was a virgin back then when i had pied so i knew i was somehow hardwired to a screen so i expected to take some time to really know how to get aroused by a real woman. Listen to yourself! Dont be harsh with yourself its the only one you truly have and try to live to the fullest! This will set you free! Have the right mindset and a relapse now and then will do nothing in your progress. Best wishes!

 

Totally can relate, my longest clean was 17 days, now deep on the mud again, not exactly my highlight...
From struggling person to struggling person, try to reduce your stress, at least in my case is definetly one of the reasons of constant relapsing, and the best thing, core thing imo, keep yourself ultrabusy so there is literally no time or energy for it, yeah, a bit contradictory, no stress and busy as hell... well it's my approach, although i have to admit that a slight unpredicted push and BOM, you are done, back to baseline...

Just my two cents...

 

My PIED is fixed like 95% and i still notice improvements such as longetivity and firmness. Everything is possible

 

What means longitivity? Thats it maintain erection for long time?

 

I've said it before and I'll say it again: fuck the streak, fuck the daily counter. It leads to exactly this kind of guilt and shame that we see in OP here. Get yourself a fucking spreadsheet, mark days you use PMO and days you don't, compare it to last month, and try to do better. You have to look at this on a more macro level; obsessing about consecutive days is really fucking counterproductive and terrible for morale. Imo it's the addicted part of the brain that wants the "streak", because when you fail you can more easily justify binging thereafter.

Now there may be something to be said for being without PMO for a certain period of time in terms of giving the brain adequate time to heal, but trying to force this upon yourself just doesn't work. It will come with time.