The Lord of the Rings Challenge

And Day 30


It's a good feeling to be an ELF!!!

 

Day 26

 

Day - 0 Completed
Checking In For Day - 1
I'll Try My Best

 

Your energy will come. Stay on the path. You can do this!

I look forward to that. I wonder whether I will miss being a Hobbit though.

 

I messed up . Day 0 again.

 

@Joe Smith04 Pick yourself up, learn from your mistakes, and keep trying. You can do this! We are here for you.

 

Lets goooooo! (It's not so bad to be an Orc, is it?)

 

Missed a few check ins: 69, 70 and today is 71

 

Day 133.

 

93 Days!

 

I've stumbled quite a bit during this week but here I am again, having completed a day already.

Day 1

 

Day 8

 

Day 2

 

I am sorry to hear about your relapse. You have been an inspiration, and I know that it sucks, but I had almost put you on this impossible to reach pedestal, and now I realize that you are but human like me, and that even the best of us mess up from time to time. So thank you (not for messing up, but for being human and showing that with enough effort, we can beat Sauron, even if he manages to knock us down here and there).

I relapsed again after nearly three days, Saturday night, (a couple times actually). The first time to porn and the second time to bikini photos and masturbation. I am 1.5 days clean now and feeling alright. I realized that the accountability app I use allows me to add keywords, so now if I use certain search engines, or certain words, my mom gets an automatic warning message. I tried to get around it Saturday night, and it alerted my mom. I told her I was testing the system (I was, just not with good intentions), and now that I know it works, I put in all the keywords that I have used to find nude photos or bikini photos in the past, and I hope this shall work to keep me honest. It is frustrating really because I cannot get to what my addiction craves without triggers the alarm, but that is also good because it is one more barrier between me and porn.

(For those who are curious, I use Accountable2You which costs I think $6.99 a month and works really well. You just need an accountability partner who will call you out when you engage in PMO).

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Day 17
I've been trying to overcome not only pm habits but also playing video games habits. Because of them, I was spending time in front of the computer too much and that was increasing the chance of relapse. I've not been playing video games for a week and I feel better. I draw sketches more often, I'm getting better and better at it. However, I have to admit something. I'm watching a football match (Netherlands vs Italy) and I want to download FM20 and to play it so hard Of course, it is not going to happen
Have a great day everyone!

 

@RiseToGreatness Sorry that happened, but like you told me, it is a minor blow and 6 months is fantastic growth. I agree with your decision to cut back on the time spent on this thread, as time is limited, and so is your energy. Onwards and upwards, my friend. We will destroy the pmo ring yet!

 

@RiseToGreatness Your positivity in the face of relapse is encouraging, while you are not ignoring the problem. Learn from the mistakes that led to your relapse, and get right back onto the journey. Do not binge. You can do this! Also, six months are still under your belt without pornography or masturbation. You did not lose that just because you relapsed. You have the experience, and now abstaining should be easier.

As for me, I have another day free!

We can do this! Let's go!

 

Stay strong friend! for me you are still a king! Thank you, thank you and thank you a thousand times for dedicating your valuable time to this great forum, to help us get ahead, this is called living! So get up and keep going strong!

Day 27

 

I am gutted more than I should be tbh; maybe that's because I believe that after 90 days we should sort of work to leave nofap behind and start focusing more on building life in general. Anyway, this process has humbled me and I know that I haven't started to understand this journey at all. From being cocky in my first streak a couple months ago, to relapsing and going on a chaser binge for almost two months. This reinforces the fact that I will encounter several unknowns. It teaches me that vigilance is key forever really as you have mentioned. You have inspired me to be able to maintain a streak, and provided a forum that gave me something to do on the nofap forums. Nothing is lost, your streak is massive! Get back on the horse, avoid the chasers and all the best as you focus more on other healthy habits for yourself.