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Day 7, it’s been a week super happy but I know I can’t develope that overconfidence because that leads to yet another relapse So it’s most definitely a long fight. We got this

 

Keep going bro, ur doing great stay focused

 

Fell twice this week. School is good because it keeps me busy, but it can also cause stress.

 

Day 24 ending now, I have never made it so far and it's almost a whole month now I am so happy and glad, but I know my journey is just beginning, let's keep going.

 

I'm Sorry ! I relapsed again.
Yesterday I couldn't sleep, I stayed up till 3AM.
I started imagining porn images in my head, I couldn't think of something else, I got a very strong urge, very strong that I felt that I'm never going to get rid of this addiction, I felt powerless, my mind was beging me to watch porn. But fortunately my phone was away. I resisted the urge and sleept.

I waked up early at 7:00AM. I washed my face and I started reading a book. During the day I got the same urges, because I started imagining things, or because I got a feeling that I must watch porn, it's like my mind reminding me. "it has been a while you must watch it now"

I'm determined to succeed, but those ideas urges are very strong. I resisted, I told myself that I'm hurting myself by doing this, I'll lose all my progress, I'll never have a girlfriend if I keep PMOing, I remembered myself that I'm 25 I must get rid of porn to unleash my potential. I went to noFap emergency page. I worked on a personal project.

After all this efforts I controlled my urge. In the end of the day, I texted my boss at work to tell her that i'll be absent tomorrow morning.

She replied with a manner that made me feel bad and unrespected, I couldn't even defend myself or respond in a confident way, even that I feel a confidence boost. At this time I was alone in the house, without anything to do. Then The urges came back. I felt a big amount of despair, I felt that no matter what I do I'll stil feel sad and uncomfortable. I decided to play a chess game to distract myself, I lost the game, then I told to myself well I'm stupid and sad, let's watch porn to feel better. And I ejaculated three timesl. I think I watched 2hours of porn. And after each video I feel bad, and start watching some YouTube videos or playing chess to feel better, then comes the urges again, and so on so fort.

What I learned and don't know how to do :
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* I must bloc porn on my phone, because I always relapse using my phone.
* I must not stay alone.
* I need to work on will power to resist urges.

I don't know how to deal with my fear about not being able to stop PMOing forever.

In the past 20 days, I was in a flatline state, I wasn't feeling aroused even will imagining porn images. It was a good streak, I must learn from it.

Next time I'll beat those urges.
I have to surpass my limits, I need someone to support me to give me hope when feeling depression, when it comes to porn I'm very weak I'm thinking about going public, but not sure if it's a good idea

 

I am gonna be the greatest hokage....

I won't run away anymore......
I won't go back on my word.....
that is my Ninja way.

All the very best guys.....we all are the future KAGES

DAY - 0
checking in as a academy student

 

Good analysis brother.A worst day without porn is better than a good day with porn.Remember this..Keep going!

 

A month free of P.
I am a JONIN now.
Checking in day 30!

 

Day 1. Can anyone share any good recourses on how to get started with meditation?

 

Day 38 no M.!!!!
Day 42 no P.!!!!!

 

Sure. Thanks bro.
As long as I learn from this relapse, it's ok

 

18 days check in

 

Checking in for day 4. A lot of things are happening in my life right now, but I am the warm little centre of the universe. I am the warm little centre that the life of this world crowds around. Nothing can shake my inner citadel. I am calm and focused. Fight with me, brothers.

 

day 1...
Today i ding everything as usuals...
although not feeling really great after relapse