Did I Mess Up My Recovery?

How is it even a relapse if you didn't PMO, but only thought of it after coming across the thing by accident? Chill.


Why don't you buy the watch for your partner, tell her about the fetish and act it out with her instead of obsessing over it and eventually PMOing?

 

"If I have a feet fetish and I look at my feet or somebody else's, is that resetting my progress?"


This is exactly what you're asking. Relax. It didn't 'damage' your recovery. If it disturbs you so much though, maybe avoid those kinda stores for a while till you think you can handle it.

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Well done for not keeping this to yourself. Remember that no one is perfect, you are going to make mistakes but the fact that you feel uncomfortable means you are taking your recovery seriously which is a good thing. Try not to take yourself too seriously though, give yourself a break and relax about it. I have fetishes that once had real power over me, but they will loose a lot of that power over time if you don't feed them by acting out.

 

You should avoid such stores, that's for sure. Sometimes you simply can't avoid meeting your fetish, but in your case, you're luckier than, let's say, a foot fetishist. Avoid it. Don't buy it. It might become a trigger, and you're experienced enough to know what comes from small temptations. So, stay away.

But a relapse? No, you're fine. Be happy with your 3-years accomplishment and simply consider your bad experience as a reminder that we're never really safe. The fact that you wrote about it shows how much you care. Cheers!