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THE FINAL COUNTDOWN • NOFAP COUNTDOWN WITH ACHIEVEMENTS TO UNLOCK [OPEN]

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Spontifex, Aug 20, 2019.

Do you want to participate in The Final Countdown?

  1. * Yes, for sure!

    307 vote(s)
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  2. Maybe later

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  1. AxBlaim

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  2. GhostRider@11

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    Oh! By mistake I had earlier posted day 1, now I have edited it.

    Check in - Day 14
     
  3. I'm checking in.
    I don't feel good about myself, but my username is determined to determinedtoquit. I'll be damnednif I'm sitting around sorry when I have a choice to make. I would count today as a relapse. I've been fantasizing pornography situations in my head before bed and while it's not looking at porn- it's just not good enough. And today I googled a well known porn star just so I could have the image of them in my head just so I could fantasize. Which is sick. But surprise surprise I caught a glimpse of a pornographic image. But to be honest, while I only got a split second look at the actual image of two people having sex; that's not all. I also watched at least three very provocative music videos but we know that music videos are just basically softcore porn nowadays. We've been desensitized. I know better, but yet I'm not doing better.
    You know it's like.. why am I even thinking about this shit. It's twisted. And I know better. And I could sit here and beg for sympathy and pity and ask God what's wrong with me and beg Him to fix me, but He knows like I know- I need to make a choice.
    So I'm resetting my counter.
    No more cutting corners. No more tolerating lustful evil images of any kind. I'm not tolerating evil, because I know damn well the reason why I'm here to begin with is because I thought playing around when I know damn well these demonic ass forces are as serious as the grave.

    My prayer for today was, "God help me to look at people the way you look at people."
    Nobody deserves to be treated like a pornstar. Like a piece of flesh. The spiritual and mental degradation isnt worth the pleasure- and percievedconsent doesnt cut it. "Its just my imagination" doesnt cut it. It's sick.
    It doesnt matter if I'm not on pornhub but I'm bussin my imagination wide open.
    I know God sees human beings as worthy of respect and creatures of dignity. We're better than this. So why am I objectifying them and thinking of human beings in such a debased, animalistic, carnal way? It's gross. I wouldn't want someone thinking of me that way.

    Anyway. Day zero again. It sucks but I'd rather restart a million times than cheat my way to a false victory still in the same position that I started in. Naw. Day zero for me.
     
  4. GhostRider@11

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    Relapse!

    I feel like I should write a big story on how I relapsed and how much I am angry on myself for doing it, but I just don't have the motivation to write about my relapse. I don't want to think about it again.

    Please nobody get demotivated seeing me, everyone continue towards your streak.
    I will Rise Up.
     
  5. You will rise up, I am sure. There are phases that are really rough and tough. Don't give up, come back. That is what counts.
     
  6. Hey ... in twelve step we say: been there, done that :). Know what you are talking of. What I can say is: There's nothing "wrong" with you. It's just that the addiction is so damn strong, these compulsive behaviors, obsessions. The body, the brain needs to rewire, the soul needs to heal, we cannot do it alone. There's God, a Higher Power, there's us fellow addicts. Keep faith, keep coming back.
     
  7. AxBlaim

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  8. AxBlaim

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  9. glnb8

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    I forgor to login. I've been busy lately.
    I'm 2 days past my goal. Hahaha

    60 Days Done.
     
  10. glnb8

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    This time I'll take on 120 Days.

    120 Days left.
     
  11. GhostRider@11

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  12. Hey, congratulations on your 60 days fap free, that is awesome. You are now listed as ASSASSIN.
     
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  13. Listed for KAZUYA. Keep strong AND keep checking in ;)
     
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