What I Notice - side effects of fapping and nofap

When I Fap:

• Whiteheads and spots begin to show.
• Hay fever becomes more present.
• Brain gets quite foggy and more AD/HD like as I’m not able to concentrate on one thing.
• More restless when I walk and become more intimidated by other people.
• Tougher to get through exercise.
• More guilt and unable to maintain eye contact for very long.
• An initial relaxing vibe but this doesn’t last long as I start to worry about everything.
• Mood shifts dramatically between happy, sad, angry and tired.
• Tougher to get up out of my bed and be motivated.
• Normal women aren’t quite as attractive.
• Get intimidated by strong attractive women.
• Lack of overall confidence in myself.
• Afraid to speak my mind and stutter.
• Become far more dopamine dependent.
• Lack of concentration makes it tougher to read books or watch films.
• When I relapse often I feel terrible about myself.
• Achievements don’t feel as great and simple things seem mundane.
• Become far more insecure and mentally fragile.
• It makes life worse.
• Exacerbates bad sleep or hangovers.
• More agreeable to people and their nonsense.
• Social ability becomes very hampered.
• When talking to women all I can think about is sex.
• My ego feels more hurt by succumbing and therefore becomes far more pronounced.
• Feel like an insignificant side character in my own life.
• I become jealous of other people especially men that appear to get all the women.
• Women can sense something uneasy about me and therefore do not respect me.
• Genitals feel off.
• I become brainwashed and easily susceptible to media portrayals of sexualised women.
• I only focus on minor aspects of the canvas.
• I become very unrestrained and tempted by sugars and other unhealthy materials.
• I become physically and mentally weaker.
• I get very irritable.
• Become more needy of compliments and attention.
• I need more to feel better and become ‘happy.’
• Become worried about the future and regretful of the past.
• (spotty and applies to those who make music) I can’t think of lyrics quite as fast though when I get desperate I can do it.
• I struggle to get to sleep due to worries and shame.
• I can’t do it or achieve it.
• Low testosterone and more effeminate.
• Embarrassment or the feeling of humiliation absolutely cripples me.

When I do not masturbate:

• Skin is much more clear.
• Hay fever is very insignificant.
• Far sharper brain that is able to concentrate
• More assertive and calm walking that is not deterred by other people.
• Absolutely kill my exercises.
• More inner happiness and confidence that allows more eye contact.
• Increased aggression especially when hungry but through deep breaths I can control this and do not worry that much at all.
• My mood becomes more stabilised as I find an inner happiness.
• Easier to get up out of my bed and be motivated.
• Normal even average women become far more (maybe too) attractive haha.
• Do not get intimidated or drool over attractive women and don’t pay them no mind.
• A booming confidence.
• I don’t fear other’s opinions and I speak clearly.
• Begin to appreciate and crave serotonin.
• More concentration means books and films aren’t as tough to get through.
• If I relapse only once after a long streak I bounce back fast.
• Achievements feel amazing and the simple things become very special.
• Become far more secure in myself and my mind becomes fortified.
• It makes life better.
• Easier to get through bad sleep and hangovers.
• I refuse to take bullshit from anyone.
• My social ability is increased greatly.
• Though I may feel slightly more nervous with super attractive women I begin to see them more as people.
• The ego is still present but is replaced by healthy confidence.
• I become the hero in my own life.
• I realise that jealousy is foolish and that what I have is more powerful than what I don’t.
• I become more respected and noticed by women.
• Frank and beans feel healthier which may lead to awkward stiffness at times.
• I realise its all bullshit and escape the mass hypnosis of over sexualisation in the media.
• I see the bigger picture.
• I develop restraint and only delve into unhealthy materials during my ‘cheat day.’
• I develop physical strength that becomes fortified by a Dr. Doom like mental fortitude.
• I do not get irritable but more masterful of my emotions.
• I do not need other people for validation.
• Happiness is already manifested in me.
• To quote Spike Spiegel ‘whatever happens, happens’ and Necro ‘we can’t do nothing about the past, so why the fuck should we give a shit.’
• Rhymes begin to pour out as I make connections far faster.
• While not a perfect sleeper my level headedness helps a lot.
• To quote Jimmy Iovine ‘wrestle that fear to push you from behind rather than to stand in front of you.’
• Pure masculinity from high levels of testosterone.
• I laugh off any mistakes or imperfections that I make.

 

No problem dude it is the toughest thing I've ever done haha but it is so worth it!

 

Oh I agree and the shame which is why you gotta keep pushing!