It is mine a fake succes story?

Naruto94 · Sep 29, 2020

Hello everyone. I want to share my life experience with you guys because you are the only ones who can unterstand me. First of all my biggest streak was 150+ days and it was awesome.I felt all the super powers i got a really nice girfriend too. It was all cool. But since the begining of this year things started to deteriorate. First I lost my streak, then this covid came, which affected my relationship, then I quit medicine cause I taught it wasn't for me, I started a new job then I got fired cause of the virus, after that I started doing drugs again, I had an overdose and almost die, my girlfriend she left me, I got a new job I got fired again, I became a fapper again and I became very depressed. So depressed that after a night of MDMA use, next day I try to commit suicide by cutting my veins and I almost die again. I stayed in a hospital for 14 days (where my girlfriend actually worked) and it was horrible. The hospitals in Romania for addiction and suicide are awful. After I get released I started to make a new life. I got pills for depression and for my overdose, a started to look for jobs, but is so hard to get out from depression. I am sad all the time. Also one thing that really bothers me is this. I started a new streak and I am at day 81 and I don't feel so much of superpowers at all . Why? Because of the medication, because of the depression? And also I am not feeling that strong connection, desire for women... This made me so sad I hope I didn't lose this powers too... What do you guys think?

Jazir · Sep 29, 2020

Hey,
sounds like a rough ride man.
The thing is, i do not want to give too much of advice, since i am in week two only, maybe some other gentlemen will write you, too.

But the thing is, i also was really close to those topics: depression, feelings of ending your life, ...
Theres a book, you may buy it: "reasons to stay alive" by Matt Haig, maybe his story will help you: maybe he will give you the feeling that you are understood, and maybe he can give you the feeling that things will change again, even if it doesnt feel like it.
There may be times in life, where the goal is not to be happy (at least not for today), but just to stay alive.

To your question: drugs do all kinds of things to your brain, it may be that they have something to do with longer time that your brain needs to recover, dunno...

Stay strong dude, you are not alone!

Deleted Account · Sep 29, 2020

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Hello everyone. I want to share my life experience with you guys because you are the only ones who can unterstand me. First of all my biggest streak was 150+ days and it was awesome.I felt all the super powers i got a really nice girfriend too. It was all cool. But since the begining of this year things started to deteriorate. First I lost my streak, then this covid came, which affected my relationship, then I quit medicine cause I taught it wasn't for me, I started a new job then I got fired cause of the virus, after that I started doing drugs again, I had an overdose and almost die, my girlfriend she left me, I got a new job I got fired again, I became a fapper again and I became very depressed. So depressed that after a night of MDMA use, next day I try to commit suicide by cutting my veins and I almost die again. I stayed in a hospital for 14 days (where my girlfriend actually worked) and it was horrible. The hospitals in Romania for addiction and suicide are awful. After I get released I started to make a new life. I got pills for depression and for my overdose, a started to look for jobs, but is so hard to get out from depression. I am sad all the time. Also one thing that really bothers me is this. I started a new streak and I am at day 81 and I don't feel so much of superpowers at all . Why? Because of the medication, because of the depression? And also I am not feeling that strong connection, desire for women... This made me so sad I hope I didn't lose this powers too... What do you guys think?
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You have gone through a rough pathway my friend. That fapping you did when your girlfriend left you has made you even worse. You’re emotionally/confidently weak now because of fapping. Though you have reached 81 days, you still have those thoughts going on your head, haven’t you?your job is to workout daily atleast for 15mins. Do meditation for 10 mins daily. Keep in mind don’t skip meditation. If you believe in God then always say “I will succeed” to them after waking up. Always remember “success needs patience”. Every good thing takes it’s time. If you have any addiction of cigs and alchohol, leave it right away. All these things you have to do while doing Nofap. All the best . You can do it.

theoptimist · Sep 30, 2020

I am very sorry for what happened to you and thank you for sharing, it is an honest story - Break up is not easy for anyone and this is a very hard step. Keep going - we are not defined by the number of days but we are defined with our actions.

Who knows, maybe you will find someone way better than your Ex. Please don't lose hope, you are a very brave person

takingthejourney · Sep 30, 2020

praying for you stay strong hope you make it

ndog · Sep 30, 2020

Don't give up, I can't give you advice yet, since I'm on the end of first month. But I've noticed that abandoning all you sexual thoughts and avoiding thinking of girls can give you improvements to the body. I can't explain it yet, maybe something related to triggering hormones by sexual desire, fantasies, watching erotic images or porn that affects the body in a negative way.

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