When I relapse, I just take advantage of it

Now again I relapsed a couple days ago. Late night, started off with dry masturbation with no porn. It felt so good especially with a 16 day streak, I couldn't help myself. Well a bit after the same night, I go and get some oil and search up PornHub, now I'm in the hole. Morning after, I get more oil, search up Latina Milf and here we go again. That same night (still within 24hours), again, I go to PornHub and get the damn oil. I watched 2 full videos because I knew once it hit 12:00am to start the new day it was back to abstaining from PMO. But that's a big problem of mine, because I had failed, I just decide to fail HARD. 4x in a 24 hour window, I busted a nut. can anyone relate to this lol

 

Yes, I can relate. Although I don't use loopholes (no pun intended, lol) as perfectly as you do, I have my own way.

It's a problem for sure! But seeing the problem and naming it is the first step to overcome it.
First we have to realize: it's all in the head! For example, after you relapsed the first time who says you're somehow entitled to do what you want for 24 hours? That's how you set it for yourself!
Of course you can do what you want and if you enjoyed your binge, more power to you. But I assume you think as myself: it was fun to binge on porn for the first time, maybe a couple of times, but over time it became an ugly and wearing habit. Especially this tendency to binge makes the addiction much more devastating (for me).

So you need another mindset. Let's say you can't avoid the first binge. After you've finished you feel exhausted and you know you broke your streak and your promise. That's the starting moment for your new streak and also for some soul searching and maybe a relapse report. Don't prolong it!

These 24 hours can be seen as one long binge. But in between there are breaks and you do other things. This is where you need to go out. You need to stop! When you don't want to stop, when you allow yourself to exhaust yourself completely, well, then there's no reason that it doesn't go this way.

The next step on a higher level would be to avoid binging in the first place. You relapse but you don't let yourself loose completely. That is an art that I want to learn myself. Sometimes it works for me but I don't think I have control over it.
I think, also here, the secret lies in the breaks. There are always breaks, even before you O. So when you use a break for stopping the activity and you turn the wheel around - that would be it!

Another thing. When you want to change your mindset on this and eventually your actions, don't forget to bait yourself into it. You're renouncing pleasure, when you make yourself stop earlier than usual. So give yourself some pleasure back by telling yourself how much you profit from your decision. Maybe find another activity that is also pleasurable.


In the end we're aiming for a mindset where a real relapse doesn't happen anymore, aren't we? We might still slip sometimes and catch ourselves when we are about to go into an old behavior pattern. But once you notice 'oh, I'm going down that path again' you already stop.

 

Drink like 4 or less protein shakes over a week and it will help with the sperm regeneration as well as give you the vitamins you lost during ejaculation. Also a few men's vitamins could help too, but its one or the other. Too much vitamin D can be toxic to the liver.

 

It's a very slippy slope once on you're in that relapse rabbit hole. The whole "just one last time" or "one peek can't hurt" mentality is your addiction lying to your self and convincing you to give in. Learn to catch yourself in these moments and you'll go far. For me, having barriers like locking the stash away or putting content filters on my devices, these things buy me enough time to talk myself out of going down that path.