[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Officially starting my challenge.
Day 0/90

 

Day 1

 

4/90 No P.M. it's the second round. The first one was a successful 90-day-not using porn one.

 

Day 6 yo.

 

Day 29.
Haven't orgasmed or watched porn but edged a bit thinking about my girlfriens
Now I'm good.
Next step is to stop this little mistakes.
REMEMBER NOT WATCHING PORN IS ESSENTIAL TO REBOOTING.
IF YOU ARE GOING TO RELAPSE DON'T DO IT TO PORN OR PORN RELATED FANTASIES, CLOSE YOUR EYES AND IMAGINE A PAST EXPERIENCE OR SOME GIRL.

 

I've started today,it's my day #zero

 

Day 3/90

 

one fifth, 18 days! Urges to M are getting stronger plus Weekend approaching... I feel helpless and get angry easily. On the other hand, I really would love to get beyond the 23 days (this is my next goal inside the challenge). Of course, I can't ask my wife for help, since she doesn't understand the whole concept anyway and never did.

 

Day 32/90

 

Day 0/90......i feel motivated

 

Hang in there friend, and try to avoid anger if you can (not easy, I know) as it will only make it more difficult for you to abstain.
The urges will eventually pass if you don't buy into them. I'm sorry that your wife doesn't understand this, hopfully she will see you getting better and understand more about this in the future. Take care.

 

Day 10/90
Had couple of rough days, went through huge depression and almost relapsed but i fought hard and got myself distracted, i even slept through some hours in the evening to get through. But i finally reached a 2 digit figure. I have only one target, to get to 2021 clean. So let’s do it. If anyone can do it, so can we.

 

Day2

 

Day 7/90 completed! On to week 2...

 

[Day 41/90]

Congratulations to everyone who has made it this far, however far this is for you.
This is a very taxing problem and one that is requiring constant support and vigilance.

Sometimes real sacrifices are necessary to get to where we need to be. A friend of mine even changed from a Smart Phone to a Non-Smart Phone because the draw of Porn was too much for him. He is adapting to life without smart phone, which is big change in itself.

Those who absolutely need Smart Phone to survive in the world might get away with using some good blocker tools to keep away from potentially triggering sites and apps.

Or use your phone to implement more recovery, try a recovery podcast like FTND "Consider before consuming":
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/consider-before-consuming/id1466445204
(I'm not affiliated with this podcast, but started subscribing to it on the advice of an SAA member).

 

I paid a big price by doing PM without O and have end my streak with binge. But I know my enemy is Porn.[/QUOTE]

What happened @valier? I did P and M for weeks and developed a spermatocele (a bump) on my epididymitis (nut) which luckily went away on its own without need for surgery. Careful with getting yourself aroused to porn without release since there are consequences. Here's the Google definition of what happened to me and needed ultrasound testing done on it.


A spermatocele (SPUR-muh-toe-seel) is an abnormal sac (cyst) that develops in the epididymis — the small, coiled tube located on the upper testicle that collects and transports sperm. Noncancerous and generally painless, a spermatocele usually is filled with milky or clear fluid that might contain sperm

 

Day 4/90
Day 616 attempting this challenge
Day 216 weight training (M, W, F)
Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcohol and sweets

 

Day 6 complete

 

Day 3

 

day 2 ,, really i am not journaling regularly also i'm not making my routine these days , but will be doing these from tomorrow