The START 2021 STRONGER Challenge [CLOSED]

Day 6 done

 

Checking in. We had a full moon last night, I'm effected by full moons and I have relapsed on full moons in the past, but when I became aware of it I'm now able to stop myself. I hope everyone is ok

 

Day 13 check in. Over the past week I have been distracted with buying a new vehicle. I am finding now with the emotional stress of buying and the the buyers remorse and back to how nice it is and working hard all week that I feel a little drained .

Yesterday was really my first day where I really experienced any kind of "peeking" urges. The wife test helped, though there was a delay in abiding. The funny thing is that these urges honestly were pretty week, but I was so aware of them. I consider that a change.

Weekends are always a challenge for me- it is like a challenge within a challenge. I feel pretty good this morning though.

Lastly, I was never a fan of these challenges, but I must say it is having a positive impact on me. It has stirred up a can do attitude.
Huge thanks @BrohkenCompass for having this idea.

 

Checking in on day 10. All goes well.

 

Oh, I can definitely get on board with that. It is very different this time around. First time, I would have tried anything, I was in such a bad state. This time, whether it’s that I wasn’t feeling as low as before, I’d convinced myself I could do PMO OK (I can’t), because I’d become accustomed to failed attempts since my last PMO-free time of any length came to an end, because that motivation had faded... whatever it might be, that motivation wasn’t the same. Equally, the process is affecting me differently. First time, I was feeling nothing in a sexual manner by this point, whereas now the urges remain. But the determination is here this time, unlike previous restarts. And I have a more visible tracker at home, too. That definitely helps.

 

Today I was tired and had a long day at work. Also wasn't feeling at home when with my roommates.

So I relapsed. Again..

No excuses though. I take full responsibility. I have a different plan now starting tomorrow!

 

I had to respond to this - how often I have felt the same way. Thing is, time is running out for many of us, we cannot wait another three months for another FALSE START. We have proven to ourselves time-and-time-again that we cannot keep these resolutions.

As @BrohkenCompass says, the only time is NOW. Somehow I already am a LEGEND before I begin, will I stay a legend before the year is out?

YES. YES I will, I already made the decision before and I make it again now, this life is too short to waste on FAP and other pointless activities. It is a life for each of us to self-actualize and become greatest versions of ourselves.

We can only do that when we let the HUMAN in our soul take command over the ANIMAL (Like owning a dog), and not the other way around.

I like how this challenge has been set up, and that there are things to ABSOLUTELY avoid and RECOMMENDED to avoid. I personally AVOID ANYTHING that is going to elicit arousal - because I notice a slipperly slope in myself.

I have largely given up sugar, caffeine, alcohol and pharmaceuticals as well, because I also notice that when my mind is clouded with these things, I make stupid decisions like "Gee, Purdy I gon fap".

To everyone who is on this journey, I honour and respect you all, because you are making such a positive investment in yourself and your futures.

 

I had to respond to this - how often I have felt the same way. Thing is, time is running out for many of us, we cannot wait another three months for another FALSE START. We have proven to ourselves time-and-time-again that we cannot keep these resolutions.

As @BrohkenCompass says, the only time is NOW. Somehow I already am a LEGEND before I begin, will I stay a legend before the year is out?

YES. YES I will, I already made the decision before and I make it again now, this life is too short to waste on FAP and other pointless activities. It is a life for each of us to self-actualize and become greatest versions of ourselves.

We can only do that when we let the HUMAN in our soul take command over the ANIMAL (Like owning a dog), and not the other way around.

I like how this challenge has been set up, and that there are things to ABSOLUTELY avoid and RECOMMENDED to avoid. I personally AVOID ANYTHING that is going to elicit arousal - because I notice a slipperly slope in myself.

I have largely given up sugar, caffeine, alcohol and pharmaceuticals as well, because I also notice that when my mind is clouded with these things, I make stupid decisions like "Gee, Purdy I gon fap".

To everyone who is on this journey, I honour and respect you all, because you are making such a positive investment in yourself and your futures.

 

Very true

 

Day 5 completed. I've had urges a bit urges today and just a while ago i was thinking on checking and see which escorts are local at the moment. And I have still yet to turn around my sleeping routine and i ended staying up till 5 in the morning yesterday

 

Today has been my most difficult day keeping to this challenge. Although there was no relapse, I failed my own wife test and tempted myself with some images. Generally, this always leads me down that rabbit hole until PMO. Thankfully, this time I was able to change course.

I know for myself, it rarely is porn that I desire. It is always that dopamine hit through "non porn" avenues. The problem they are just a gateway to PMO itself. It is a rare time that I can dip my toe in the funnel without being sucked in.

So, I move on. Those damn urges to peek are so hard....

 

Thank You for sharing with such honesty!

 

Day 9 passed.
I believe that, although this is, until now, my easiest streak, I am not doing much things about my personal goals. My mornings are always very productives, but the afternoon not so much, maybe it is my biological clock, but I truly hate not beeing produtive trough the day.

 

Hard relapse on day 2. Give me a strike @BrohkenCompass. But today is day 1 again, and I will make it to day 2, 3 and beyond. I've started my day off well, and hope to continue it.