The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 1.

 

Day 4

 

day 5. yesterday was easy, today morning is hard

 

Day 5

 

Day 11
I am doing good, going strong
But i am really really struggling with withdrawal symptoms..
Like I have been excessively restless, bipolar, Overthinking uncontrollably.
Lack of motivation and drive..
It is really hard but I know it is sign of healing

 

Day 12!
Stayed in bed way too long and eventually saw some triggering stuff on the internet that could've led to another relapse. Thankfully I managed to resist the urges. Let's keep this streak going! Don't give up! Think of the times you relapsed and how shit you felt afterwards and how much better it feels to continue your streak!
Have a great weekend everyone!

 

Day 7!

 

This is so far my longest streak ever 152 days!
Almost relapsed and orgasmed in day 125, but porn didn't feel not quite exiting anymore and because i already had a long streak going i had the will not go give in to a relapse.

Remember guys with heavy pmo addcition, even if you are past 90 days those urges are still strong as before and can still come back after that, to pull you back into pmo void.

I almost lose it because i lost my focus a little bit and didn't interact with nofap forum that much anymore.
Stay focused and change your pmo habits with something that betters your life, so there is no vacuum of space and boredom.

 

24 hours clean and counting

 

I failed today or better in the night. I laid to bed late and i was edging a bit. My motivation for today was killed by this. I relapsed because of the edging.. I am back to day 0!
Never ever ever stop running!

 

Day 13

I have not posted in half a week mainly due to being busy and trying not to put too much emphasis on my streak a instead put more emphasis on my journey. I have not masturbated in 23 days. Though I have looked at porn in the mean time. I am not sure why, though it is a pleasant surprise, but porn does not have the same affect on me as it used to. I look at it, but I get nothing out of it. I hardly touch myself, and it is not pleasurable, it is just there. Thursday I got triggered by something I read in a YouTube comment section, and while I started a search, even finding a pornographic video that did not trigger my accountability app alerts, but after looking over the page for a few seconds, I realized I did not want to do that, after all, I was entering day 12, and it did not make sense to me. Instead, I logged out and posted in my porn recovery group chat. After that, I started typing in words to see what would trigger the accountability app, and what would yield soft core porn without triggering it. However, I quickly snapped out of it when my finger slipped and I ended up clicking on a link that triggered an alert. That scared me straight, and I got off and went to bed. It was an interesting night two nights ago with me peeking at pornography for a few seconds, and then doing searches to see what it would yield. While I fished on and off for quite some time, finding nothing, the only time spent on actually content was less than a couple minutes, and most of that time was me reading about different things and me contemplating downloading an adult game. So in all, it was not a relapse, or even a reset as I have defined it for myself, though it was incredibly risky behavior. Most of the words I searched yielded completely mundane images like pictures of traffic lights or water faucets. (Like I said, it was an interesting night, and most of that time was spent looking through mundane images to see if I could find erotic material). I did not have the best intentions, and when I woke up in the morning, my OCD was really bad, telling me that my bad intentions regardless of results were enough to consider it a reset. However, I realized that if I reset every time I had bad thoughts/intentions, I would never make any progress or boost my confidence. So I moved on and fought the guilt which was telling me that I had screwed the pooch, because ultimately, I need to make it a point to stay on the boat instead of just treading water, and resetting my counter for minor incidences (however bad my intentions were, or how long I spent trying to find some pleasure) is just treading water. It is not about streaks, but rather about lifestyle changes, and so I have been checking in less often on my challenges on NoFap, and I may continue doing that only posting on weekends or when I hit a new milestone. I reach two weeks tomorrow, and I will be a Hobbit on Monday. I cannot keep letting guilt over minor inconveniences run my life.

Have a good day.
Best,
Mathman1994

 

Checking in for day 17 - i became a Hobbit 2 days ago!

 

Day 0.
This elf fell back into the shadows of darkness. I think I was over-confident and one little trigger I saw on Netflix ultimately led to me falling off the cliff. I believe though it wasn't what I saw on Netflix that made me reset, it was my emotions and loneliness. I will put a new plan in place and keep going.
This time I downloaded a blocker for my phone as a safety net.
Pick myself up and keep going.

 

52 Days done

 

Day 60

 

Day 17.

 

Day 13!!!!!

 

14 Days!
Two weeks down. A lot more to go. Keep it up every one!

 

Day 4, feeling less filthy