cant get streak started

It is a big relapse... But don't worry.
I suggest you to turn off all of your devices for a couple of days. During this two days, go outside every time you can, get tired by doing workout, don't go to bed if you aren't ready to sleep.
You can do this!

 

Hi!, Dont Give Up!

You can do that, but when you relapsed, you need more motivation to lift your spirit.
And, you need to fight that brain, i meant, you really need to fight that.
When you have urges, say this to your brain 'Am i gonna do this?! Have sex with my own hand?! with pixels? Just for 5 seconds of joy?!'

Remember the bad cycle, MAsturbation - Depression - Masturbation (again and again).
PMO, Will not help you go trough your depression, it will make that worse. You can live without PMO, you can do this bro!

 

Try this:
This helped me so far.

 

Hi
How is it going?
After you relapse there's no need for regrets or shame, just start again. Now I understand, you are a student, so am I. It's complicated, I know. Try to diminish the use of electronic devices, if they are a source of temptation. But if your triggers come from other things, it is not necessary.
And you don't need to go where there are people, I mean go outside of your house, go to your backyard or go for a walk to some empty streets wearing a mask. That is very helpful whenever the strong urges come.

 

Hypnosis meditation for freedom from porn addiction (nofap, not using porn, etc.)

 

First, keep yourself busy and that will end your boredom. I have lots of activities besides being online. I read books, I walk and feed the dog, I listen to music on either Pandora or Spotify, I spend time with my partner. I have spent the last few months talking politics on Facebook trying to get Joe Biden elected. That for sure kept me busy. Relapse shouldn't be an opportunity to beat ourselves up. When we relapse, we should take time to determine what triggered the relapse and finding a way to get rid of the trigger or block it. I spend time either weekly or monthly going through that week and determining any potential triggers, even if I haven't relapsed. It is kinda like finding a couple of bugs in a program and spending time fixing them. Then we can return to start a new streak. Relapses are simply a learning experience if you let them. I have not relapsed yet but I have to admit my father dying today almost drove me to relapse as fapping to porn would release some energy and help me relax. I chose not to do it and instead listen to Christmas music and taking care of some personal business. I also reached out to friends on Facebook for support AND I've decided to start counseling or therapy. I have my first session on December 21st. I will reach out to the therapist and put me on a waiting list in case an earlier time pops up.

 

I'm wondering. Do you have ADHD? I do and either I get myself too busy and start ignoring other stuff I need to do OR I just can't get out of bed. I have ADHD and depression among other things. It does sound like you have ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder). Might want to have a doctor test you for that. That adds an entirely new wrinkle to going no-PMO.

 

Sorry for your loss.