Obsession with blowjobs, Omegle addiction

Hi all,

Summary
Since many years, I as a guy became addicted to blowjob porn and chatting with girls about their blowjob experiences. It costs me so much time and made me feel miserable. I want to overcome these 2 related addictions. And I also want to be excited about other sexual acts, other than blowjobs.

My obsession with blowjobs
I (guy in his twenties) have 2 main problems, which I am ashamed about. These problems are related to each other. Firstly, I seem so obsessed with blowjobs. I am very interested to watch blowjob porn, read posts made by girls who express their love for giving head. It became such a turn on. Penetration porn and stories are much less exciting now. I know porn in itself is bad, so I don't mean that I want to switch to other types of porn.

Secondly, I got addicted to Omegle, a website where you can chat with random strangers. Around 6 years ago I was chatting with a random girl there and we somehow got into asking each other questions, at the end also sex related ones. So I remember casually asking if she had given head, to which she answered yes. She then also honestly said that she really likes doing it. This got me super aroused back then.

So I started to visit Omegle more and more, just to chat with girls that have given head and are willing to give details about their experiences. I wanted to know more and more about specific details, discussing their first bj's, where and when it was, whether he came or not, dick size etc. I then became addicted to this, and still am till this day. I have had periods in which I would spend days in a row, spending at least 4 hours a day on Omegle doing this.

I really want to stop all of this, it makes me miserable, physically and mentally. My legs, back and neck would hurt for days afterwards. I would also have headache. And when I am not busy with Omegle, I often feel ashamed about my behavior and tastes. I also want to be excited about regular sex, giving a girl head etc. Although I managed lately to abstain for several months from Omegle, I could never stop it completely. I would watch bj porn for example or just relapse.

Does anyone know how I can overcome these problems for good? I would be very grateful! Sorry for the rather long post, I was at first reluctant to talk about this. I hope the summary above makes it easier.

 

It's an online thing. I haven't yet talked to girls in real life about this.

 

Oh I get you now. Yeah actually I have never got a blowjob or had sex lol. So maybe when I get one, everything will be solved?

 

Yeah no problem. Well since I am definitely attracted to girls, I cannot be gay. But to be honest I have in my entire life felt some attraction to maybe 2 or 3 really handsome young actors lol. It's nothing compared to the countless girls though. Actually, I am not interested in bi guys on omegle talking about giving head, I encountered them. Oh and for some strange reason, I found bi girls talking about their bj experiences less exciting than straight ones lol. Intimacy between girls doesn't seem to excite me also, which does to many guys.

 

Actually I came across a subreddit some months ago, called Hotpast, in which I also became interested. Normally I wouldn't like my future gf to be experienced while I am not, let alone fantasize about her past. But because of reading that subreddit, I sometimes began fantasizing when I am horny about my future gf being experienced and me asking her about the sex she had with her past lovers. But for some strange reason, when I am talking with a girl in real life that I like, I don't really want to think about her past, would make me kinda jealous all of a sudden.

And yeah I managed to abstain from Omegle for months sometimes. It made me feel much better and more confident. Abstaining from masturbating to bj porn, for some days only. I would feel physically better.

And thank you guys for your help, I feel relieved finally to be a able to talk about this! I still feel ashamed though about my obsessions, but a little less now.

 

A quick reply here, it's been 2 days now that I have abstained from PMO including Omegle. Sometimes however old stuff comes to my mind with vivid imaginations, I hope that's not a huge deal. I'll try to do more sports and schedule more activities. I'll take some more time to think about the reactions you've given me and figure out what further actions to take. Thus far it's been not difficult to stay off. But whenever I would feel the strong urge to relapse, I'll make a post. Thanks again for your input!

 

I'm getting the urge to go back to Omegle or start to fap. I feel also quite depressed and are noticing now that I became addicted to Omegle to escape reality I guess. I'm 25 and have missed so many things in my life. Being a virgin till this day, never even had a date or kissed a girl. I had a strict religious upbringing, all these things are forbidden outside a marriage according to the religion. However, I am not convinced of it anymore. I want to live my life, but I feel like I can never make up for those lost years. It would have been so nice if I lost my virginity at 17/18. I tried many times previously to convince myself that it doesn't matter that I missed those 7 years, but I can't. And add to that, still no driving licence, little work experience, no experience of many adventures that peers already have done and I have chronic pain. I have social anxiety because of my speech disorder, I stammer. This makes me scared to apply for a job for example. I can't express myself freely when communicating with others, which frustrates me.

I want to compensate for those lost years. How can I forget those lost 7 years and really enjoy life fully? Sometimes I don't feel like 25, I feel considerably younger.