Going on Omegle leading me to question my gender

Hi,

This is my alt account. I need to get something off my chest. I have been having addictive behaviour for the past few months in lockdown. I don’t know how to stop. I talk to men on Omegle in the middle of the night. It’s a huge rush talking to a stranger on the Internet. I pretend like I’m a super hot girl

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with huge DD boobs, huge bubble butt, blonde hair, heels, red dress etc

I get really turned on being submissive for guys as a woman, in the perspective of a woman. Being degraded online. Makes me me all flushed. I keep looking for daddy’s and mommy’s to be a sub for. Last night I talked to a 40 year old man and he wanted me to show him my booty, but I was like I’m at work can’t. I wanted him to show me his huge BBC. Then another time I found a daddy and pretended to be his little

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slutty short bimbo. He wanted to f me so badly he was hard as a rock and I made him cum after describing my looks. After which I came after he gave me permission. Then I said thank you daddy for giving me permission to cum

It’s a nice escape from reality, rather than being a guy I get to be this super hot bimbo girl. Rather than being a gross guy with a sweaty d and balls I can be beautiful, pretty, sexy in my fantasy. I know I’ll probably meet some serial killer on there eventually but I just can’t stop. A few years ago I was addicted to sissy hypno then I stopped but I can’t get over this craving to be a woman. I wish I could be a super hot girl just for one day, talking to hot guys and having sex with then. Anyway this is my experience and after describing it I’m all red in the face again and my legs are shaking. Hopefully there is some kind of way to quit this. I’m also addicted to watching videos of

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women getting f ed, orgasming on sybians and being f ed while blindfolded and tied up. I keep imagining myself in their positions.

anyway I have to stop describing this stuff before I get too turned on. That’s all for now.

 

Had a dream.

First part of the dream I had these porn photos that kept flashing in my head of gay sex, guys having sex with each other. I was exposed somehow to this fact. Then someone I knew kept saying he’s doing magic that’s an abomination in the bible! over and over again, like a broken record. I made a deal with Lucifer that he would give me the opposite of the holy spirit, because he revealed to me there’s not only the holy trinity, but the unholy trinity as well. I accepted because I knew all that stuff about the bible was nonsense trying to limit me to be enslaved in their cult. Somewhere after this and that broken record repeating the same thing over and over my crystals fell on the ground, like when glass shatters and broke in a million pieces and my tarot cards went everywhere. Second part of the dream I was walking around with this woman in this old village. I was this old dude walking around with her. Then she realised I was her husband after revealing it to her, but because I was so old and fat she could barely recognise me and I was ashamed about the gay stuff. Third part of the dream I was this woman being held hostage by the Russian mafia. We were in this type of room with old style furniture. They gave me 5 choices. Either go with them, stay here and die, stay here and live, go to the location like they asked or do sexual favours for them. So I chose to start masturbating. See in the dream I didn’t have a penis I had a vagina. So... here comes the

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I started rubbing my pussy on the couch and they were like no, you’re not allowed. Not yet... sluts like you only get to cum when they are told to. We’re going to turn you into a whore.

and that’s the dream. I’m not feeling well so that’s all for today.

 

I started rebooting yesterday but I can’t see a future where I’m not a PMO addict. I have nothing to live for besides porn