The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 33 as an Elf - I won’t update regularly due to issues, i will check in every 8 days

 

58 days

 

20 days – With rain and fog you enter the old village of Bree.

Ahh the good o' Bree

 

I don’t think anyone thinks this is a joke. I don’t know your story, but you seem to have a lot of self-loathing in your words. Do some people not try very hard? Maybe, but it isn’t on you to judge. Shame is a self propagating monster. The moment you give into it, is the moment you lose and then you decide you have nothing to live for as you are irredeemably bad, and then you find yourself looking at porn every night, fapping away until morning because ultimately you are a bad person. At least, that is what shame says. We support each other in this difficult addiction giving words of encouragement and not spitting on people who are down. Now I can clearly see that you are in pain and you are obviously externalizing, but I say to you that you don’t need to do that here. You are welcome and you are supported. You will probably fall down again and again like we all do, and you cannot let the shame from that get to you. You are a good person, and though you are a porn addict, you are not defined by it. Alex Rhodes, the founder of NoFap, is a huge proponent of not feeling ashamed about your situation as it is self-defeating. And even if you hate yourself does not mean you have to make others hate themselves. I used to hate myself more than anything, and shame was a direct cause of that. But once I accepted my place as a porn addict, and I rejected the shame around it, I found I started to live a fuller life despite the addiction. You can have that too, but you need to stop your antagonism towards my fellow Fapstronauts and of course toward yourself.

I don’t expect you to like what I am saying, but your words are incredibly unhealthy for this community, and I ask for you to breath and let us support you. It is the only way any of us will beat this. I may look like I am on day 5 (mainly because I am), but I am 6 months into recovery since I made the decision that I had a serious problem and that I needed the people here’s help. I have gone a whole month no PMO and I have made it a week here, two weeks there, with some binges in between. I feel those moments of shame when I binge, but I realize that if I wallow in that shame, I will never be more than just a porn addict. So I work at it and stumble. I work at it and I relapse, just like everyone here. Heck, the creator of this challenge made in almost 150 days clean, but then he relapsed, and I believe that it is shame that has kept him down since his long streak. So don’t condemn u for relapsing every few days, and don’t condemn us for supporting each other in this trial in life, it is the only way we will get through this. I have full faith that all of the people that are active in this challenge will get clean eventually, but we don’t need any newbies coming in here to condemn our camaraderie. And I believe that despite your tough talk that you are at your whits end else you would not have signed up for NoFap last Saturday. So come, sit down, join us on this journey, because I know that you will find what you are looking for if you just be patient, be supportive, and be receptive of support.

And lastly, please, please, please, post only about your struggles and not about how everyone is a failure. Because that is not nice, and I would suspect is just a deflection.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Day 5

I will be an Urak-Hai this time tomorrow. I made it about a week and a half this last time and to be host, which I did reset until after 14 days, I had edge from last Thursday through last Sunday, before I finally masturbated. And to be honest, that masturbation was what I needed to remotivate myself. After I masturbated, I was able to move forward with a clear mind and by not focusing so much on my addiction, and instead more on my goals, I am finding this streak to be a lot more productive and relaxed.

Goodnight all.
Best,
Mathman1994

 

Calm @Mathman1994 , don't give him what he what... I know how angry you are, I also don't like arrogance. But, if there is something I learned from bullies is to not react to then and they will go away. In these moments I always found helpful to remind the stoic words "Amor Fatis". @Mathman1994 , is more honorable the man who fought the dragon and was defeated then the one who did not fought at all but proclaim to heaven and Earth his non-existent courage.

 

@1punchman , @Onan the Barbarian , @PerseveranceToday , Keep the marching guys! That the light of Eärendil star guide you!

 

Day 23. Not a very productive day, but did not relapse.

 

@RiseToGreatness Hahaha, I love this challenge! I'm very new here, but The Silmarillion is my favorite book of all time, so I have a huge love for LotR as well. I'm in!

 

Day 18
I am proud...
Stability Day by day. Although I was feeling overwhelmed from yesterday...
Will fade away with time hopefully..
Emotionally very stable and focusing on making myself priority..
Less Overthinking..
Where I am now I feel good
Still way to go...
Slacking In productivity department


Chill everyone on this thread @WarriorKing1 @Mathman1994 @Teotau...
You are all brothers

 

Day 10, double digit

 

If you are so much better than us, maybe this thread is not your place. Don't waste your time with weak minded people like us

 

Day 7!

 

Day 5.
Last day of being a filthy orc.
I feeling a lot better moving forward from now.
Thanks for all the support from everyone while @RiseToGreatness is having a break.

 

Day 13

 

Day 19!

 

Day 4

 

This filthy orc accepts the challenge!

 

Day 12.

If we were perfect, we wouldn´t fall in porn, nor in other vices. But we aren´t, so every day we strive to improve, to grow in virtue, to do our part to make the world better, more beautiful and more true.

All of us -I think- know that we fall sometimes, but others we make good things. Evil is a mistery. We end doing bad things that we don´t want. And we must understand that one could have a good streak and other a bad streak at the same time and next day roles change, or having a few days streak could be a victory for someone while for otherone that´s nothing, so we should be more comprensive with the people around us. One thing is clear: we are called to fight this battle, our lives depend on it.

As P. L. Castellani said: <<God will not ask us to account for the battles won but for the scars of the fight.>> <<Dios no nos pedirá cuenta de las batallas ganadas sino de las cicatrices de la lucha>>.

 

Day 3! Haven't technically joined yet but halfway through being a filthy Orc.