Well here goes nothing

Dear Fapstronauts,

Hello !

I came here because I may have a severe porn addiction and a enslavement to masturbation. Not that I really suffer from it, but I just realized that it maybe isn't as healthy and natural as I thought it was.

I saw a youtube video that advertised on this community and thought to myself why not give it a try. I don't really know what I'm getting into.

If you want to know a little more about me. I am 30 years old, I am an executive in a bank. Married and daddy of a newborn baby. I consider myself happy because I have a stable and rather comfortable situation without being immersed in luxury. In terms of leisure activities, I like computers in general and video games, but I am far from being a geek. I also like travelling, going out, the nightlife, drinking and meeting people, women in particular ... (first confession, so let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at me). Rather athletic by nature even though I'm not in the best shape at the moment. I like to please and I do it well. I am introverted by nature even though I appear to be extroverted to others. I have a fairly pronounced taste for risk and I love adrenaline. But I'm still a thoughtful person all the same. In terms of religion, having been cradled in a rather modern Islam, I am a believer but I really have my own way of believing or not. It depends.

Well, this description goes all over the place because I wasn't sure what to say. So if you have any questions please do not hesitate. I have nothing to hide and I am frank, I have no taboos (probably due to porn).

On that, enjoy your reading.

This is it

 

Hi MisterDoe,
Thanks.

Well for the first question let's say that I'm writing from west-Europe where live, but originally I'm from east-Europe. And english is not my native language. I don't want to give more personal info at this stage.
For the other question, you can change the font when writing a message... So I did that to make my entrance spectacular

 

Thanks again
It's not that it is too personal. It's just that I don't know if I'll be here for short or long term. I didn't see the point of talking about my country. I've always said to myself, the less we know about me the better. When things aren't going well, some people tend to use this information against you. Although there is nothing threatening on this forum, it is just a principle

 

I don't know... Is there ?
I'm still questioning myself.

I don't know, maybe. But there are some things that I'm really not proud of, really really not ...

Why?
If I have to put it simply without detailing ... I know it's wrong (at least some things are). I know it keeps me from doing other things because it takes a lot of time. If I think of others, of my surroundings, it could hurt them so much if they knew. And I guess there are all plenty of psychological bad points that I don't even suspect.

Am I unaffected?
Well yes and no. I've been in this for so long. That even my own conscience no longer hinders me. If nobody knows, ever, then no it doesn't affect me more than that.
And yes, I sometimes think of my family or friends. But, I manage to get over it. The addiction to these things is much stronger and I simply let it go.

The real damage?
We are supposed to be able to distinguish between good and bad. And luckily I can do it. I know this is wrong. Even though I have learned to live with it. I think I can become a better man, a better human being. And above all, I want to avoid hurting the people I really care about.

Thank you. I'll do my best and try.