My Journal Thread

Hey everybody,

I decided to start a journal, where I could tell you about my days in NoFap. I'll post every day.

 

Day 3
Morning
I woke up at 5:45 in the morning - as usual. I jumped out of the bed right after my alarm ringed (sometimes I get up without it) and headed to the bathroom. I washed my face with cold water right after I stepped into the room. After that I brushed my teeth and stepped into my bath, to have a shower. With cold water, of course. Since I always use cold water, it's not a big deal, but I always feel great after it.
Around 6:00 AM I cravled out of the bathroom, and read a great book - 1984 - on the couch. Then I ate a fulfilling breakfast and headed to school. (Starts at 8:00)

Evening
School was okay, I had erection a couple times, after looking at the body of some hot girls, but I focused on something else, and that was it. On the bus - while going home - I had a hard time not looking at the feminim parts of the two beautiful girls who sat right in front of me. After getting home, I listened to music, read, and browsed the NoFap forums for a while. I had some urges, but I easily managed to not to do anything. By the way, I always wear jeans at home, no matter what I am doing (expect having a shower or using the toilet of course ). This way I prevent myself from M, because it takes a lot time, to get those jeans down, so I can quickly realize whats happening and stop myself. With P I have no problem, but I have a hard time getting rid of fantasyes. That was Day 3. It's 21:00, so I'm going to sleep.

 

Day 4
Morning
Nothing special have happened today.
I did my morning routine, to wake up my mind, and started my day. School was okay. I still try not to stare at girls' body, but here, in the forum, they say, that this will go away naturally over time.

Evening
I had erecton like 4 times, but I easily managed to not to fap. I didn't stay busy by the way, I just said to myself that ''I don't give a fuck'', and continued my day.

Storytime
I had a big urge. I don't remember how, when and why, but I opened a P site, and started watching porn, and to M. I didn't O through.
It took me a couple of minutes, to realize, what I just did.
I was so disappointed.

Then I woke up, and realized,that it was just a dream. It seems, that I had too much taughts about NoFap today.

 

Day 5
Morning
Nothing special happened. I had some small urges. Not exactly urges. I would say erections, because I didn't even wanted to P or M. I had many things to do by tge way, I didn't have time for these useless things.

Evening
I found the website of Recovery Nation (recoverynation.com) thanks to @Nofapsincebirth . I did the first lesson today (On Day 5). Inter alia I had to write 10-15 resons, why I want to permanently change my life. Not just 3-4 basic ones, 15 reasons. It was really hard to write down the first 10. Then I wrote more than 50. I may shorten it

No big urges, etc.

 

Day 6
Small urges, nothing special. Continued with Recovery Nation's lessons. I had to do lot of chores, but I was happier, than usual
Nothing happened that has a relation with NoFap.

 

Thanks!

 

Day 7
Today were really busy. I had lota of fixed programs. So much, that I didn't even have time, to the third Recovery Nation lesson. I didn't really have urges. I had erecrions a couple of times, and that was it. I didn't need to force myself to not to fap, I simply didn't want / have the mood.

Let's talk about girls.
I know only a few girls, like 30, which sucks.
Anyway, I see "many" girls glancing at me on public transport vehicles.
Maybe I simply haven't noticed it until now.

 

1. Estabilishing a romantic relationship
2. Live with integrity
3. Be brave
4. Be confident in my abilities
5. Bring justice to the world
6. Be chivalrous
7. Always do the right thing
8. Make my significant other happy
9. Feel good about myself
10. Make others happy
11. Support, help, inspire and motivate others
12. Be forgiving
13. Not to take things personally
14. Defend the ones who need to be defended
15. Stand out from the crowd
16. Have goals
17. Be a man with manners
18. Live with compassion
19. Sharing my true self with the world around me
20. Being charitable, giving
21. Forgeing strong friendships
22. Developing intellectual depth
23. Expressing spirituality in my day-to-day life
24. Bringing joy to others
25. Being playful
26. Being reliable
27. Being dependable
28. Having a sense of humor
29. Taking responsibility for my life
30. Honesty
31. Humbleness
32. Being considerate of others
33. Being considerate of myself
34. Taking care of myself
35. Living an exciting life
36. Living an adventurous life
37. Developing emotional maturity
38. Risk-taking
39. Estabilishing financial freedom
40. Creativity
41. Overcoming personal struggles
42. Improving myself
43. Physical health
44. Physical beauty
    
45. Sexual intimacy
46. Physical pleasure
    
47. Sexual contact
48. Feeling sexually desired
49. Being masculine
50. Feeling unconditional love
51. Developing patience
52. Wisdom
53. Connected to my own feelings
54. Being charming and warm
55. Being charismatic
56. Communicating feelings
57. Taking care of others in need
58. Feeling happy
59. Open-minded to the beliefs and values of others, tolerance

These are my values (the sequence does not count)

Day 8
I did the third lesson of Recovery Nation. Well, it wasn't that great of a feeling for me, as the second lesson, but it was still okay. Anyway, I also rewrote my Life Vision. I think, that now it describes my vision almost perfectly.

NoFap
I am surely recognized by girls. At by least 2 every day. I mean who actually stare at me. Anyway. I feel better about myself. I almost feel confident. I'm not sure, that this is related to NoFap, but it may does. About the urges: Nothing. They could not be easier to overcome. But. I am way more horny. Super horny. Even when I don't have an erection, I feel horny Anyway, everything is under control. I have not done anything stupid because of this.

 

Okay, I am back, after 3 years.
I managed to to get a 200+ DAY STREAK this time, but I didnt wrote it into this journal
Now I am trying again!