Urge to watch something specific

Do something else to distract yourself. You're not pre-occupied with work or hobbies which is why you have time to think about that I think. I think it's perfectly normal to get those images especially after excessive porn use, I think I have the same issue.

 

Is it wap by any chance?

 

lol, it's a song. don't google it

 

Flashbacks are very normal I think, especially in the beginning days of no PMO; it’s like quitting a drug- you start thinking about it a lot because you don’t have it. Who knows why this particular video is the thing you mind is fixed on- maybe something particular you liked about it, or it was novel or memorable for some reason. I have a few images that are left over from literally months or years ago, and my mind sometimes thinks “oh if I could find that image again it would feel so good”. But it’s a lie. It’s porn just like anything else and it’s straight up bad for me. Distract yourself with something else, maybe watching a good/catchy/healthy video, something you really enjoy, could help force it out. Sometimes when I am feeling really triggery I watch a comedian I really like and laughing really hard is a great healthy release.

 

Had a bunch of flashbacks 30 days or so in. And getting a bunch of scenes playing if I am idle for too long. I guess it’s the last stand on my subsconcious to go back.

I solved it by getting a new book to read, in the past I’ve also dealt with it by watching a movie or some stand up.

 

At 30 days, it was on and off usually on weekends, I think I was being more mindful and the pursuit of reaching past 90 days helped me to clear my mind off the thoughts.

it seems that now 100+ days in, these are the thoughts - “I won, I conquered, what’s next, I’m scared?, Let’s just watch some and then start over”. Once I started reading on Sunday though, I was preoccupied with a different subject, not relating to sex, porn.

 

Replace bad habits with good ones. Every time you get urges get up, go for a walk, and find something to do!