The START 2021 STRONGER Challenge [CLOSED]

Day 118.

 

Day 49:
Wet dream, pretty conscious. I remember allowing it to happen. Don't really even remember pornographic images.
It's okay. I get it it, it's part of the process, as has been discussed earlier in the thread.

Just to retain semen while awake is a huge step forward. If I can healthily move to retaining while in sleep, that'd be great too. Am seeing progress there.

5 days to pass my longest no P&M streak.

Try to take it easy. Focus on the progress not the gap, and keep going friends.

 

Day 57 - Some thoughts...my nofap journey is moment to moment. As another hour passes, when that stress situation presents and I don't reach for the phone and go to a P site to salve my pain, when I have an urge or a memory of a P image and move along instead of acting upon it, that is my path - in that moment. I find benefit in the immediacy of that success. And then it is on to the next moment. Just breathe. Stay strong.

 

It has many times happened with me. Like you want to let it flow in the dream. I guess its part of recovery process.

 

We are on our way to a relapse, we are always moving towards a relapse whether we know it or not. We may feel on top of the world, weeks or months into a streak, but then the next thing we know we’ve relapsed. After years of relapsing iv come to the conclusion that this lifestyle takes more than just willpower. We have to put barriers in place to prevent the inevitable relapse. These barriers could include the following

• Internet restrictions
• Getting rid of smartphone for a brick phone
• Keeping internet devices out of bedroom
  
• Creating mental barriers by letting sexual thoughts pass through our minds without dwelling on them
• Not watching films with sex scenes
• Not randomly searching the World Wide Web without a purpose and a time limit

There are more barriers im sure, write down which barriers you could create to stop the poison from coming in when your tired or horny or feeling overly happy, when our sexual desire feels out of control our barriers can help save us.

Another thing iv learnt is the push pull method. There are things that are pushing me away from my addiction, if I continued my pmo addiction I would probably end up doing the things below. The thought of doing these things push me away.

1- I could end up hurting someone physically
2- I will end up viewing extremely depraved stuff again
3- I will loose my friends
4- If my family find out I’m screwed and will live with shame for years
5- I will become a wanker looser
6- I will get hit hard with depression and anxiety

these things push me away from porn, but I have things that pull me away from porn towards the light

1- energy
2- feel comfortable in myself
3- don’t have to worry about browser history
4- can look women in the eye
The list goes on, you get the idea.

The main thing iv learnt is to take pmo off the pedestal and know that it’s 100% worthless and it will bring no benefit to our lives what so ever. Imagine being given a sandwich, it looks good on the outside, you are hungry so you greedily and quickly take a big bite out of it, only to find that it’s full of dog poo and it’s all in your mouth, in your teeth.. you can taste it.. that’s pmo.. for years on my nofap journey I had put porn on a pedestal and kind of feared it, feared it’s power that it had over me. But iv taken it off, it’s worthless like the dog poo on my shoe.

Putting good habits in our lives like a good diet, exercise, journaling, getting to bed on time, these things help alot, but good habits is not a long term answer. Changing ourselves within and developing a raw hatred for pmo and all the worthless porn out there on the internet that’s destroyed lives, broken up families and led some of the actors and viewers to an early grave, learning to hate pmo, but also learning to love life without pmo. Loving ourselves so much that we want to take good care of ourselves, loving our life, loving our family, loving a pmo free life.. love is the most powerful force in the universe.

Lets stay clean for the rest of this year gents

 

Day 30.
Moving forward each day. Not looking back.

 

You are still our role model. Being married and doing NoFap isn't easy. There will be a time when you truly find what works and you'll let go of what is holding you back.

 

60 days !!!

Sixty, Sixty, it is Nifty!

Okay, I'm not a poet. Don't bug me.

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Day 3 clean is not really so existentially different than Day 333 clean. Breathe free today, and be at peace.

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Take it slow, @BrohkenCompass . Having a two year streak (2015-17) myself, I know that declaring victory is a dangerous thing. The longer I went PMO free, the more I took it for granted, and the more likely I was to give in to urges when they eventually came, because I thought everything would be OK. Three and a half years later, after a slow decline, it turned out it wasn’t. You can be winning, but the game is never over. Take each day, each moment as it comes, and you’ll get through this. You’ve got the determination. Keep it going!

 

Day 3 I'm ready for this challenge

 

I wish I had a good question to help you clarify things for yourself. Good questions help me.
I don't at the moment.

But know you're a real help to all of us.

Perhaps focus on some of the good advice you've given out yourself?
Focus on all the time you've been clean during this challenge, this year etc.
Focus on other good things in life.

Clearly, you are making real progress.
Applause to you for being real and open with your current feelings and experience.
That honesty is a bigger step that often recognized.

 

Day 51 for me:
Challenging events. Grateful that PMO is not the answer for me now.
Pray I continue this better way.

 

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