[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

day 2: bad short sleep, anger and forgetfulness. But I'm still going

 

Day 1.

 

Day 0

I want to start a clean streak for as long as possible.



@Merry Terry Yes I had a No P counter to remind me how long I have gone without actual porn. I have done that since December last year and have not loooked at real actual porn since then, so really proud of myself for that. This does not include P-subs like insta and such. So I know what you mean. What I meant was if you start to doubt your streak is not clean and want to introduce a second counter because of that - maybe just reset OR if you wanted to finish the 90 day streak even if not cleanest - just do it! lower the strictness a little and finish it! See how you feel after and decide where to go from there! My first 90 day streak this year was also not the cleanest - there was some edging from time to time and rarely some sexy pics here and there, but ultimately it did the job - I had very fullfiling sex with my ex and with another girl for a few months!

The reason I wanted to do a second 90 day streak was to cement this new mentality of no porn and masturbation very rarely and focus on healthy relationships with women! So I am not giving up on that goal! You should not either!

 

Day 1 done.

Getting back on the wagon took a day longer than I had wanted, but I'm back here now and ready to keep on going. Yesterday wasn't too bad a day with only minor urges, not like the last time where I really had to fight for a few days to get back on track. So hopefully this relapse didn't cause too much damage.

 

Day 15 checking in

 

45 days. halfway there in the challenge!

 

Day 3/90

 

Day 0 of my new life.

 

Day 18/90.
How much time it takes to recover completely to normal?

 

Day 0/90
Unfortunately I relapsed today. Could have avoided it. Went into some random youtube video then instagram and then to the worst.
This is the shortest streak recently. Though I will pursue my journey with full effort and determination. I have to quit this nasty thing. It's already too late and I fear much worser consequences.
I have PIED and it is going to be worse.
Surely this time I hope there will not be DAY 0 again
ان شاء الله

 

Day 5 in the books.

Praying I don't come down with a cold.

 

Okay, guys, I'm on Day 3 now. I don't post regularly here, only when I feel like it. Or when I need some instant motivation. It is nice to see people overcome this terrible addiction. My mind has been sort of obsessively active lately. I try to meditate for as long as possible every day. But for about 2 weeks now, every time I relapse and get back on the wagon, I feel completely overwhelmed with brain fog. This is not a problem I had before. Maybe I'm further along in my recovery than I think, or the meditation is exacerbating my condition. This has really become serious, in the sense that I spend hours over a passage from a book. It's not like I don't comprehend it at first, but that I obsess over it till I'm satisfied with my comprehension of it. In an attempt to get rid of this problem, I contemplate relapsing and starting over again. That has been my story for the past 2 weeks. This time I was about to do the same thing, but I came over here to ask for advice. For the time being, I'm sticking with my practice, but if it gets any worse, I will have to think about something else.

 

Day 57

 

Day 0/90 PMO... relapsed yesterday... twice... after 4 days PMO.

Got to 42 days once and just felt like the best version of myself everyday. Want to normalise that.

I’m writing this as the urges from the chaser effect are trying to get a hold but will make this thread a daily routine now, with a daily update, this is the key I hope

Thanks everyone, keep posting!

 

Day 4.

 

day 22 done

 

Day 38. Went on a "date" today. It was horrible. We were supposed to meet at 4 pm. After waiting a good 20 minutes in the freezing weather, I got tired and walked away. Shortly after I got a message about "where am I". Well, I replied that after 20 minutes of waiting in the cold I just got bored and decided to leave. On the bright side, since the date didn't go anywhere there was no temptation to do anything sexual. I have a long way to go till 90 days anyway.

 

3 days, still problems with going to bed

 

Day 0.