Why I Came Back Here

For those who want some motivation today...you may wanna read my story.
About 2 months ago, I got to know about nofap. I was thrilled because I wanted to change my life. I started abstaining from PMO and for the first time in my entire teenage and I was able to abstain from it for 5 days in a row. (the best was maybe two days).

But then I failed miserably. On the sixth day, I relapsed and masturbated 3 times. On the seventh day, I masturbated four times. It was this strange addiction (chaser effect)...I got addicted to PMO like never before.

But during my relapsing days, I noticed how my confidence had come down which was so high just a few days ago back then. Then I realised that because all these years I was fapping so bad, I never felt something like that. It was this 5 days which showed me that there is a better way to live life.

I wanted to immediately get back to nofap, but I couldn't, My brain was just not allowing me. I spent hours and hours every night masturbating, while failing at every important task during the daytime.

Recently I became 20 yrs old. And I was crying at 11:59 pm when my family member came to me and wished me.(yeah I don't like parties thanks to porn affecting my social life) I hid my tears and cried the whole night after that...i realised that i had just fucked up my teenage. I never did "COOL" stuff that I was supposed to do. I was lonely. Toxic friendships. Never confidently talked to a girl. Complete disaster. Only thing I was good at was studies and I got into a very esteemed university. But as soon as I got there, I went down this rabit hole, and dedicated my life to porn. I got straight Cs and Ds for the first time in my life. I used to not sleep the whole night and watch videos in which girls would call me a loser and asked me to pay them for being a loser.

Recently, I watched a video of Gary (look up for him on google) and it moved me. I now am 3 days into NoFap and the feeling is surreal. I am able to focus on my studies now, and hoping that I would pass the challenge this time.

Just remember that people will tell you that masturbation is healthy. NO IT IS NOT according to me, because almost no one has the ability to not get addicted to it. Ofcoure one time masturbation is healthy but no one talks about the aftermath...your brain will fuck you up to masturbate more and more.

According to me having a real relationship and having sex is far healthier. But unfortunately, porn reduces your self-esteem to a lowly low, like it did to me. Which leads to traits like not being able to talk to a girl. Porn destroys you. I never was in a relationship nor have I ever had sex.

This is what porn has done to me...I just wanna change it once and for all. I hope that this post helps at least one person change their life.

 

I have posted this on another forum, but I felt like this is the right place...so here it is

 

Yeah mate... exactly. The whole meaning of this challenge is to make our brain capable of not going back to porn every fuckin 5 hours of the day. It disciplines us to conquer the "addictive thoughts". And that's what we should try and try untill we succeed.
Thanks for your supporting words.

 

All the best to you too mate.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts.