Daily Journal - Becoming reforged man

You are absolutely right bro. I’m gonna learn from my mistake.

 

Hello everyone day 1 just completed. I have had a productive day. Also I started mediating 10mins in the morning and night. It feels so great I feel some kind of power in me. I didn’t have a urge today. Also in earlier when I did pmo I use to have a huge migraine but this I didn’t because mediation I guess.
Mediation also increases the strength of frontal lobe which definitely help me control urges.
I’m definitely gonna make meditation a habit. On to day 2. Hope you all are doing great.

Quote of the day :
Remember, you have the capacity to choose. Choose life! Choose love! Choose health

 

Day 1:

Life of pmo addict :
I am a pmo addict. Life of pmo addict is just living a life as a corpse. I feel dead inside. I have made a lot of mistake in my life but pmo addiction killed me. I think I may have POIS due to the excessive use of pmo. My condition is so bad that I feel I might not live long enough if I did pmo more. But I choice pmo instead of life. I have no energy, I procrastinate a lot, I have many headache and nose block, etc. I feel like there isn’t anything left in my life. I started this journal to become a reforged man but it feels like I’m becoming the same person I used to be.
Currently when I’m writing this I have severe headache,no strength only weakness. I did do pmo 3 times yesterday.

Porn is prostitution with camera. And what I’m doing I just keep on disgracing a women, girl a human being.
Supply = demand. As I keep watching day and day due to much accumulation of dopamine block up so I went on watching more brutal porn. I’m responsible on porn to spread. Sometimes I bow down and apologise to women I watched and MO on. But then I do the same thing again and again.

I don’t know when will I learn from my mistakes.
I think urges aren’t the probelm because I think deep inside I want to do pmo.

I always have a Choice to do pmo or to live a life and become a reforged person. I want to choice life.

 

Hello everyone hope you all are doing good.

Day 2:
I think found the major problem that lead my relapse. I procrastinate on everything and more often don’t do it.
Today basically I didn’t have any urge I went out and study hard. Didn’t have anytime to do pmo. Also I kept on reminding myself why I started nofap. I think if i just don’t put off on my work. It will really help. I will not procrastinate let’s will update about it later. On to day 3.

 

Hello everyone hope you all are doing good.

Day 3:
So basically I kept myself busy with studies. I had a little urge but was busy with work didn’t bother. I did some self talk also. I think if I do my routine and don’t procrastinate on my work. It will really help me on nofap journey. On to day 4.

 

@pedrofresh23
No problem English is not my native language too brother. I could totally understand your pain my brother. Your word really are brings me back to reminds my past and present too. I can understand what you and all us has gone through. Main thing is people don’t even think that what they are doing and even I didn’t when I was small. Pmo is pitfall more and more we do it the more we get stucked. But past will only give us regret. But we can make a new person. Think about what you want to become as a new guy and put the efforts build it will be sometime easy or hard but it will totally worth.

We all are fighter my friend. We will all become a reforged man. Keep fighting. God bless you!

 

Hi everyone I relapsed yesterday and day before that. I was feeling low so thought to go for pmo. Worst decision.
But I don’t know why I feel really strong now and it feels like for this time I might live above the urge and emotion stuff. I have a exam on Sunday so might not be able to post daily but will try. Let’s keep fighting.
Hope everyone is doing great.