The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 5.

 

Day 6

Found my way out of mordor and made it to Isengard. I feel a little bit better but I don't plan on staying here, the shire is waiting for me!

 

Day 15
Finally a hobbit again x)
Days feel like they're going slow. Some days it's harder than others, like always.
Keep fighting.

 

Day 26

 

Day 208.

 

Day 4:

Great start to the day and I intend to keep my energy heading in the right direction. Early morning run in anticipation of a long day in front of the computer with Lectures and what not.

Here we go guys! Thank you again for all of the support!

 

Day 23.

St. Thomas Aquinas, pray for us!

 

12 Days

Just checking in. Let's have a porn-free weekend!

 

94 days

 

Day 86.

In many respects our day counters hide much of what we have been through. I see overall progress and building of strength even if you have a low counter number. I see you, my brothers and sisters. With every streak, even just a little longer than the last, your brain is learning to live without P. This is good! Be proud of your progress because it is there.

 

Thank you again @RiseToGreatness and all the fellowship here, may heaven's blessings rain down on you during whatever sacred wisdom tradition festivals, you practise, this winter.

Checking in
No PMO - 3 Days

I had a very good day today -
- eating well to nourish and replenish after MO 3 days ago (Vitamin D supplements, coconut lime pineapple, beetroot, leaft greens and dark chocolate),
- exercise, gardening, visiting elderly family members
- feeling very good (which is strange for day 3 as usually I get major withdrawl about now)
- cooked a good meal this evening and then started doing Day 2 activity from Freedom Fight:
- List all the lies you tell yourself about P
- Write down the counter argument for each of those lies
Well that last activity literally awoke the beast again - he must have been just lying there waiting for me to feel more and more confident before striking, but this exercise drew him out and the urges arose like a tidal wave inside
- started to enter an obscure search term with the secret hope it might throw up a trigger and looked at some thumbnails which thankfully had nothing suggestive
- stopped
- came onto this forum
- read your comments again which really provide a great sense of solidarity and camaraderie
- I have never relapsed, or M'd, on a day when I post to this forum first - this & the panic button above are some of the most powerful of all weapons available
- stepped back off the ledge again
- continuing my Freedom Fight activity
- came to this line "Confessing to God is not enough; we need others for healing"

So here it goes guys - the lie that part of my mind tells me is that fishing is harmless, because it can happen with any search term anywhere. But that is me lying to myself, because I am hiding the true secret intention of fishing, to relapse into P and act out. That is what that part of my mind really wants and fishing is the gate to get there - despite what I said in an early post. So I have been lying to myself and in some way here too, so forgive me. I now commit to stop fishing full stop, and ask myself before I google anything - what am I really looking for, and why?

One thing I have not lied about is how I count this fellowship as a group of friends, truly. Thank you all again, thank you.

 

Day 3.

 

Day 32. A lot of work today but we still in this fight . God bless you all

 

Al

Agora eu sou um Elfo! 36 dias.

 

Yesterday I relapsed unfornately. I was on social media and advertisement show up and I wasn't counting and it were there some naked models. That triggered me to watch porn and everything happened.

But in other hand I reach 2 weeks with NoFap. The last time that I reached that time was a long time ago.

I must continue!! I worth more than this!!

Let's continue brothers and sisters!!

Day 0 Check in!

 

Thanks @RiseToGreatness and everyone for your support. Will start climbing the path carefully step by step. The forces must be defeated to save the middle Earth