Sexual orientation/depression

You should go to a therapist. No one is going to fix your obvious self-hatred in a few lines on this forum, that requires serious work. At the end of the day you need to realize that being attracted to men is not the end of the world, it's a part of who you and it's actually okay, even if you are not able to see that right now. So what if you might be bisexual? There are hundreds of millions like you out there, you are not alone.

 

I have a theory that a person often develops a fetish based on an early experience of arousal. Essentially we try to go back in time to that early experience of arousal by watching similar things.

The fact that you are only aroused by this particular male pornstar means you shouldn't worry about your sexual orientation. There are people who are aroused by balloons, because they have a balloon fetish. My theory is that these people had some early experience of arousal that involved a balloon, so later in life they keep trying to recreate that early experience.

 

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I'm just kind of curious, what are your goals in life? Where do you see yourself when you're 80 years old? I'd spend more time thinking about what your life is going to look like when you're 80 than what your sexual orientation is. And then try to get there. Make your life fit into where you want to be at 80. Let's goooo!

We all are attracted to things that we aren't comfortable with. I've gone through most of the porn categories at one time or other in my life and it doesn't worry me. That's just my brain in its curiosity and childhood experiences trying to ruin my life. Let's desire to have lives we would look back at, at 80 years old that are pleasant and beautiful. I'd recommend reading the book "Ecclesiastes" it really helps put life into perspective. I wish you the best brother! Don't beat yourself up too much over it.

 

Ask yourself a simple question: "Do I really want to have sex with men?". If this sexual desire appeared just after you getting addicted to porn then what other solution to that problem would be besides getting rid of that disgusting habit? Most of the people here confirms that masturbation causes brain fog so that's another reason to quit.

Also if you'd like to know answers to some life questions contained in the bible then you can DM anytime

 

It can happen with the escalation of porn, you look for a dopamine hit, the same way, porn truly does warp your sexuality in that sense...maybe away from porn really ask yourself WHAT you look for in a woman...

 

It won't. Developing porn addiction will make things worse.

 

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