The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 89.

One more day to become a grey wizard. The journey has been very difficult. The throes of life in recovery are not easily overcome.

 

Day 59! Let's Go!!!

 

15 Days! I think I am a hobbit again now.

Edit: Just checked, yep I am. Feels good. Now I'm starving. Not for second breakfast, but for self-improvement.

 

Day 0 - relapsed, I read shame enhance addiction so I treat it more like you do in games - now i know how to do better so i'm gonna try again.

 

Day 0, feeling without strength ...

 

I was scrolling through comments on a Facebook post recently and the vigilantes were in full force. S.( my girlfriend) saw me getting fired up, fingers poised above the keyboard and ready to respond.

“Don’t engage!!”

Damn...she was right and I knew it. While I’m passionate about being porn free and about choosing your own path to be porn free - this was one of those times I needed to just scroll by and not engage.

I didn’t want to respond in that moment to empathize, educate or inform. I was fired up and I wanted to prove my point and prove that I was right.

Except - my point is not right for everyone. Even with science, research and so much else behind me. I needed to stop and remember that this way of thinking is right for me and for others, but that doesn’t make the path that others choose wrong.

That goes way beyond watching porn or not watching porn, too. Think of how many arguments and disagreements, hurt feelings and just negativity could be avoided if we all learned to just not engage.

Coronavirus, Black Lives Matter, Trump, the Economy, politics…so much negativity can be avoided- especially when many of our strong emotions are medicated with pornography and masturbation.

Very rarely do we engage because we’re trying to help or educate. Usually our motivation (regardless of the issue) is self serving. We are seeking that sense of satisfaction that we are right. Yet, in these situations, no one walks away having accomplished anything.

Imagine if instead of trying to get others to see our way, we invested as much time and energy into listening to why they see things the way they do.

What can we learn by not engaging?

-J.K"[/QUOTE]

For me, i see myself as having been listening way too much to the point i have forgotten to express my views and opjnions. I find myself jus sitting or standing there, intently listening and have nothing in conversation to offer. Esp at my new workplace , where it requires me to speak up and LISTEN LESS. It's funny, but thats how it's been for me lately. Bytheway i i am just replying to this not to agree or disagree, but to see that i am expressing myself and not shutting my views down, be it wrong or right.
I feel good now thanks for letting me speak up!

 

@MarioVargas Hey man, we are here for you. This is a brotherhood, we are you strength!

Stop everything and write down all that you have accomplished up to this point, even if you feel it is the most trivial of things. Write it down. Read through it, tack up on your wall.

You are capable!

 

@MarioVargas come on bro you can do it , its hard but not imposible , we have to do whatever it takes, cause Every sacrifice its worth it and the recompense its higher than the sacrifice, we are fighting for our freedom and you are not alone, we are doing this together fighting side by side with our own sacrifices but with one goal in mind ,our freedom, so come on stand up again and fight my brother

 

Sorry to hear about thy fall, yet I shan't despair, for each fall is a reason to get up and try again.

 

Day 15! My day was full and tiresome, with little to no pressure...barely got any interest in insta thots . I'm getting more and more inspired, yet I'm finding it difficult to find the time to act on that inspiration. Learning how to do things not driven by insufficiency but by abundance would be a great achievement, however at this point I'm still a looooong, long way to go until I can do It without feeling insufficiency trying to take control at any point.
Anyyyway! Keep strong Brotherhood, even for one more night! Emperors, ready yourselves for rising!

 

19 days today. I became a Hobbit during my time away!

 

Hey @Zapy97 , the doldrums end, there will be wind in your sails again soon. I think we learn more in the struggle, the heavy days, than we do in any others. Soon the fresh breeze of strong natural endorphins will run in your veins and you will emerge from this chrysalis, no longer needing any artificial stimuli, and you will soar... We're with you all the way!

 

Day 7:

Happy to be here with the Fellowship. Hit my first real checkpoint in this challenge yesterday and the sense of achievement has me hungry to become a hobbit.

Reaffirming the fact that I am stressed about some bad news so that I recognize it here infront of myself and the Fellowship. It brings me back to the HALTS system of introspection (am I Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired, and/or Stressed). Identifying the issue and not lingering on it makes it so that on is better suited to move beyond it (in my opinion).

Thank you again NoFap Community for your support, encouragement, and willingness to pursue a porn free life. It is truly motivating

 

97 days

 

Just 3 to go to a century @LuckyMan, bravo, bravo!!!

 

Day 44
I'm focused on getting through each day clean from PMO.
But now time has come to quit all sugary foods. I have recently started craving foods that before starting NoFap I rarely consumed.