Many doubts due to sexual dysfunction

First of all welcome! You're at the right place, and a lot of good people here. I have MO-ed since I was 13, but my real addiction to PMO began when I was 18 in college. I am now 26, and I discovered this site in November 2016 and that's when I decided to do the NF Challenge.

Let me just tell you that I had so much doubt when I started NoFap. My erection was basically dead. I absolutely needed some crazy P-videos to get an erection, my taste got crazier and crazier. And even when watching P, I had to use my hand to get an erection, which btw ended up weak and pathetic. It would get halfway up at best. Quite often it would get bruised/sore, but I didn't care. I still m-ed through it, and it was friggin sore while M-ing!!! That's how bad my addiction was.

The first few weeks were absolute hell. I wanted to pmo so badly, the urges were killing me. I was depressed and really thought I killed my erection for life and I will never be able to have sex, but I really found great support here and that's how I stuck with it. The longer you can stay away, the easier it will become.

So far I have made it to Day 49, then 5, then 2, then 8, and now I'm currently on Day 45 (and counting!!!) I’m still in the process of getting rid of my PMO addiction. Every day is a battle. I’ve been making some good PMO-free streaks between some of my relapses, but I still have a lot of work to do. In the same time, it isn’t to say that there hasn’t been any noticeable benefits! =]

My erection has for the most returned! My penis is pretty healthy again. No bruises/soreness, what a great feeling! I am having these rock hard erections now. It's crazy, I haven't had erections like these since I was a teen. I KNEW I used to be bigger haha. I also measured myself, which can be a great confidence booster! This definitely helped me keep going.

I'm sorry I cannot advise on the sex part. I am a virgin, and I will be remaining that way until I find the right lady. But from what I read here, to me it sounds like actual sex should be okay. Definitely ask around though!

Please don't doubt yourself. It won't help to think these negative thoughts. Negativity is the path right back to pmo, and that I know.

Check out the "Success Stories" forum if you need motivation. Many people have had the same thoughts that pmo permanently damaged their erections, but they have been able to fix them! I really enjoyed reading these and they have given me a lot of hope and motivation.

Take care friend!

 

Remember brother that every day, every hour, every minute, every second, every moment it gets easier and easier. Don't doubt yourself. This is easy and you are going to stay on top of this my friend. Keep up the good work.

 

I have a great AP here. Do you? =]

 

That's great you have an AP. I have a great one for now, but I will keep you and the group in mind!

Again, made it to Day 49, then 5, then 2, then 8... and I relapsed twice yesterday (Day 46). Of course I wasn't happy, but I did do everything I can to proceed with my day as normally as I could. Though I was kinda drained physically and mentally, I did my usual workout and didn't stop until I completed it, definitely felt better after that!. I thought "Here we go again, back on square one". I thought my erection was gonna be dead for the next few weeks, just like pre-NoFap (from all those years of binging). The days and weeks following each relapse, it was basically dead. However this morning, I did wake up to some wood and it was pretty much at its max.

Don't even let the relapses discourage you! If you can pile on some amazing streaks between the relapses, you will have amazing benefits. This includes (but not limited to) fixing your erection!

 

In your condition, i would skip normal mode and go to hard mode. How can your.penis heal if you are using it for sex? If your leg is broken, you stop using it and let it heal. I had Really bad PIED and had mangeled it too. I would have scabs on it and it would be bleeding and could not stop MO. I hated myself and would punch myself after every MO that i did it again. Also, i felt absolutly nothing when i came. No orgasm at all, just ejaculation. It was about as exciting as spitting on the sidewalk.
But it did all come back. I did no medication. The number one thing that gave feeling and my erection back was Meditation. It seemed to re-energize my body and fill all the cells with positive life force that rapidly accerated my body's healing.

 

Anyone here cure ED? Im lost hope of my life and feel suicidal

 

I did! I was a guy who PMO'd 2x/day/everyday/8 years. I am telling you. It came to a point where I would have 20 tabs open, and NOTHING would work to wake "it" up anymore. It was a size of a baby carrot, bruised, sore, etc... Towards the end of that 8 year phase, I discovered NF and decided I wanted to quit for good. On my first attempt, I went to 49 days. Within two weeks, it was working again, but it was inconsistent. I had long phases of flatlines, this is normal.

To tell you the truth, it took me MONTHS to get it working consistently again! The best thing you can do is to stay away from PMO as much as you can. Even though I have relapsed here and there, it's working again. It is a whole lot better than when it was during my 2xPMO/day/everyday/8year phase.

Don't give up man! It will be worth it. It might take a while, but it IS possible to fix. PS I discovered during my journey, that I was lot bigger than I thought. I guarantee that this is not uncommon. Keep working, and I'm sure you'll be pleasantly surprised too!

 

How bad your ED before and how long take it time?

 

From PMO'ing 2x/day/everyday for 8 years, it was BAD!!! It was literally non-existent, no matter what. I could watch the craziest $#!T and it just wouldn't work... it woke up after a few weeks PMO-free, but I had flatlines. Took many more months until it was consistent again.