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Fantasizing about gay sex

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Headspace, Jul 10, 2015.

  1. Headspace

    Headspace Fapstronaut

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    Ok, this is something I haven't talked about to anyone before.

    Sometimes, especially when I have abstained from PMO for a few days, I start to fantasize about having sex with another man. While there is nothing wrong with that thought, it is something that has only existed in my mind so far without having had any projection into the outer world. That is, I can't think of any man I felt attracted to for something I found to be special about him. Accordingly, I never had sex with one, and I don't think this will change. It is just this abstract picture of my mind, and I feel it wouldn't be good for me to have sex with someone just for the sake of it.

    Some years ago I would log on to online sex dating sites but never actually try to have a date. Now I'm wiser than that, but I still feel quite weird about this whole thing. However, thinking of my own words right now, I am confident it will just pass as I grow older.

    Has anyone had similar thoughts in his life? How did they evolve over time?
     
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  2. Arley

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    I actually am gay, just so you know where I'm coming from ... But I've read so many accounts of basically straight pmo addicts that end up having gay fantasies. There's a novelty seeking aspect to this addiction that seems to require, over time, infinite variation. That is, basically, if I act out on my pmo addiction long enough I'll probably get into virtually every different type of sex/fantasy. So in other words you can basically still keep your hetero card in light of the nature of the addiction ... If that matters to you.
     
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  3. writer239

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    This. From my time on the forums I've noticed that this is a pretty common occurrence. Not all straight nofappers experience it, but there's a decent number of them who, like you, are a bit freaked out and uncomfortable about it. Usually it passes after awhile. My personal theory on it is that since you're not getting sex in a normal way, your brain is starting to bring up other ways to get that dopamine rush, even if they're ways that you don't necessarily see yourself indulging in realistically.

    The brain's a funky monkey sometimes.
     
  4. Icyweb

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    Like the others said, you probably aren't gay, and it's just your brain looking for different stimulation to satisfy it for a short time. As long as you don't entertain them, they should go away soon enough.
     
  5. Arley

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    Well, or if they don't go away all together , they eventually will have no more meaning than a gust of wind
     
  6. Kiddy

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    I have this same issue. I think the most important thing is to let go of the self-judgement through building yourself up with NoFap. I can't call myself fully straight, though I've only ever been with my wife and no one else. Sometimes I think what it would be like to not have these feelings. It's not something that I am ready to let go of right now. For me, it seems that struggling with SSA has taught me so much about life. Even if I could magically change to a fully hetero person, I am not sure if I would want to. That's the way I truly about it.
     
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