The Lord of the Rings Challenge

day 2

 

Day 22! The uncertainty of my schedule still hits me hard and the muses start appearing in my dream! I'm grinding a little this period as I am trying to be productive and not comfortable. My thoughts flee to the past yet that is not good as my day passed and all I did is go from place to place every 1-2 hours. I have only 2 objectives that I want to achieve for the rest of the day as to feel like the creative day has not passed: Meditate 10 Minutes, read 15 minutes. It's not much, but it's not nothing either.
I'm going to find the objective as it is blurred in my racing mind!

 

Day 14,

Last day as Uruk if I keep away from PMO! Had a nice run and looking to slowly reintroduce cold showers into my life by starting with James Bond showers.

Working on challenging difficult/uncomfortable choices. For example, it is windy as heck out here today and rather than use the wind as an excuse I decided to get my run in.

Thank you for the care and support!

 

James Bond showers, I had to look that up.
104 days

 

Day 13.

 

I gave in last night and am back on Day 1.

It shouldn't have happened. I had just overcome the urge, and then decided, "eh, why not?" It's hard to explain. I think I convinced myself I was entitled to it due to stress or something.

I'm not wallowing in the muck, though. Back up and at 'em. Last streak was 21 Days. At the very least, I aim to improve on it by at least one week this time.

 

Way to get back on the horse dude!

 

Hey, thanks a lot for including me! One week done, next stoppage at hobbiton.

 

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Day 12.
Had a very good time with my best friend getting married a few days back.
Apart from that, I have been developing some genuine feelings towards an old friend but I am sure it is not coz of the PMO forces and that has made me very happy. That I am unable to tell her due to some personal reasons of her own (she's just coming out of a divorce) - highly risky, don't want to hurt her further if it goes wrong (she might stop trusting guys altogether), not very confident so far of myself, not yet at the level of nofap streak as well. Not sure of my future course of action here so far...

Talking to friends (quite a few of them has helped a lot though). Hope you guys have a great week!

 

Instagram is dangerous. When you are in the right headspace I recommend you go to the search section and click not interested on all inappropriate pictures. But you must be very vigilant and determined to do this. If your mind is weak you could be triggered easily.
Or get a friend to do it for you.

 

Day 1 complete!

Yesterday after my relapse I finally did some research on porn blockers. I avoided using any for a long time mostly out of stubbornness, but also because I didn't want anyone to accidentally stumbled across the app on my phone and start asking awkward questions. Then I realized that if I am unable to break this PMO addiction, there will certainly be many awkward and painful questions at some point in my life. Rather than have to admit someday that these forces have continued to destroy my life, it would be far better to be able to show people that I'm fighting! I decided to use Incoquito for Android, which did cost me about two dollars, but it's able to completely shut down incognito mode through my browser. Time to kiss fishing and peeking goodbye.

 

Day 17
My brain is starting to ask me to fish for stimulation, but I have to be strong and don't fall in the trap.
P.S I already deleted insta from my phone, as @Chakra_Serpent says, it is too dangerous.

 

64 days
Instagram is banned for me too, I only use facebook and try to check in as seldom as possible.

 

Man am I stupid or what? Every time I come back here I promise to be more faithful, but instead I stop posting immediately and only come crawling back once I inevitably relapse. Here I am again, day 0, this time I'm going to stay accountable.

 

Man since November I have so much sexual thoughts and energy. After a relapse I can focus 2 or 3 days, then the fluet of sexual "energy" comes to me and I`m a dirfferent person. Last night I relapsed but now I can focus on studying etc......

 

Day 34.

I could beat No Nut November! And know I´m going to make it in december too. Vade retro PMO.

St. Agnes of Rome, pray for us!

 

Day one Clean soon it will be day 2.

 

Day 43. I feel good today even though I still have some things to do and i want to do it well. But we cannot put the guard down the urges can come in any time.

 

Day 3 is almost over. I spent several days away from NoFap, and while away I masturbated, though not to pornography. I am back to being an Orc.