THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Hello guys, it’s been a while. I had a couple of rough weeks, trying to help other people and not keeping myself in check. It took a heavy toll on my mental health. So I took a break for a long as time from the challenge. However, I started to get better just by a bit. I’m here again to be fully determine to complete this challenge with you guys.
So I’m starting from day 1.

 

Learn to meditate. Do not engage with the thoughts. Let them come, let them pass.
Keep yourself busy, focus on things that are good for you like hobbies etc.
In case of emergency use the emergency button on this site and have a cold shower.

Suffer through the urges, that's when you break the association stress relief = porn.
Take some pride in that pain. Like when lifting weights, the healthy pain means you are getting stronger.
Do not hump the bed. Asking if you can hump the bed is BS and you know that. Stay away from sexual arousal of any kind. Be accountable.

 

Day 37 checking in.

 

Start of day 11. Some urges this morning, but I'm going to ignore them and head to the office.

 

178 days clean, 2 more days for half a year!

 

The problem is that these urges occur in my sleep.

 

Hello friends, its been 2 days since i checked in here. Those days were so hard...
My test result came today and yes, It is negative. But the health workers told me to continue my home quarantine period for another week. I don't feel any illness but this quarantine thing sucks...it made me weak in every aspects.

But i think its time for me to come back...No more absents.

Checking in...

 

@SlayerofDarkness Ahhhh yes, those sneaky urges coming forth when we are at our weakest! Those pesky things! I remember all too well those urges. I sit here and I try to remember where I was in those times. What did I do? The only thing I remember really, is just riding them out when I wake up. I just let my junk stay hard and I slept on my back. At the time I didn't have any sort of techniques or anything. I just laid there, sometimes I rolled around and others I just lay there eyes wide open just wondering about life. I guess I put a mental block between myself and getting on electronics. No matter how uncomfortable I was I just stayed there in my bed each night, almost every night. The next morning I would go for long walks with my dogs and then I would take a run. During my runs I repeated to myself these two phrases, "I am worthy" and "Women are water". I ran until I literally couldn't run anymore.

This is my suggestion on your trouble with the sleepy time fantasies.

I have seen so many times within these forums that people downplay willpower. I don't agree with this totally. I think just powering past the urges and strong thoughts is a must. That is just how I did it in the very beginnings of my journey.

 

Day 110.

These past couple of days were probably one of the hardest ones that I have been through since my last relapse. My wife and I were talking about P genre, not for pleasure, but for understanding. Her mind goes a thousand miles an hour so she has been trying to see what it is that drives addicts towards certain genres. I was okay when we started talking but my brain start to catch on to the imagery of P scenes. After that my body started to yearn to do something. My previously stable self started to become fuzzy, like it was in the beginning. Man! I could not get out of that state for hours and hours. That fuzziness f***ing destroyed me. It is like my skin was phasing into the air around me. The darkness was seemingly trying to overcome my being. It was hard to enjoy anything during these times.

I think this is what many addicts go through that makes us succumb to the P world. Given the state of mind that I am in now, I think I can see that from a different perspective. I think that state that I found myself in was the old me from almost 3 years ago when I first started going without P. I was trying to occupy that space again. But, what I had built up to this point had kept me on my feet and going forward. Just putting in work everyday. Accepting that my only choice is forward.

So yesterday evening I worked out like I had not in years. I kept going and kept going for about an hour. Just working my back and my legs. Only giving myself breaks for 1 minute in between reps. I told myself I am not going back, I am not going back, I am not going back. Until my limbs were completely unable pick myself up anymore I stopped. After, I breathed the fresh as I was outside. I felt so much better. The fuzziness disappeared.

I wanted to share this with my fellow Saiyan brothers. I hope it inspires you all!. I continue my counter, gratefully and humbly, for I understand as much as I can what you are all going through.

 

Beware brother, Saruman has fallen into darkness by studying enemy arts .If you can imagine yourself being a paperman then you can see that no matter how long you stayed away from it (fire of PMO) if you come close enough you gonna burn.Stay strong brother and guard all your senses from this dirty flames.

 

Checking in ! Super tips followed (top to bottom):1,2,3,4,6.
see the very beggining of the callenge.

 

Day 154...... All good

 

Thanks man