My path of lust dissolution.

VTheBang · Dec 14, 2020

Hey, fellows members. I hope this journey never ends!!!

The NOFAP journey till now:-

I have been on this journey on & off for quite a time now. I have previously practiced Nofap with my highest streak of 5 months, but with wet dreams, after which I miserably failed, things happened, got some of the superpowers and lost them too, it was like a dream that I desperately seek. I wanna go at-least a full year now, I am adding rules in my life apart just from no P.M.O., as it is not sufficient enough. Such as being silent, or speaking sweet, certain meditation practices, mudras necessary for nofap, being busy throughout the day.

I have been using many apps though but not this forum, I simply didn't know how to & would have been dark if today I haven't explicitly searched, I am glad, I am becoming part of this legendary community for the first time. I hope, I become an active contributing member to this community.

Me and my story:-

I am a 24 year old male jobless, in college for a looooong time. My first priority is to finally complete college and get a decent job. I have had many vortexes throughout my life, the day I begin jerking off. I stumbled upon porn via ads on torrent, after that I have felt the consequences, then afterwards I had an on-off relationship with porn. Then for 2 years I didn't see the P, just MO-ed, that was nice too but it also had consequences which are delayed in this case. Then comes the college where I got the high speed internet, that was the end of myself. And after that I got bored by porn I became a fucking creep(for this reason many choose to fap) , you see community MO-ing is also not "good", what a person MO about when he/she is not watching porn??

Masturbation deranges the soul, it (the f-ING temptation i.e. lust) whether it is to porn, or simply looking at celebrities, and any other girls.

When I realize the bad results are due to ejaculating the semen, I don't wanna waste it any more even in my dreams, & not even with girls. I am glad that I'm in home protected from vaasanas(temptations), I don't want any attention from any girl now. I wanna celibate and focus on my career. All temptations lead to misery, I am now frustrated with this cycle of sexual-relationships, and the culture of so called "openness". I just wanna live in a village away, with the essentials:- family, work(yeah, internet is everywhere), etc. where I can just plug-off the grid, and have a decent internet activity(well organized bookmarks, etc) and with the "NATURE".

I hope this community will be great help, to counter all the vested interests of the society and so called "social fucking media".

Different interactions of life:-

I got many other vices as well. Then after some years I stumbled upon nofap. It did that my life changed, then college life became beautiful-er. I had destructed by brain/self through such bad activities. I also wanna thank marijuana, alcohol, cigarettes, PC/mobile games, TED-Talks, self-helps, etc. for helping me to realize, there are many other things to get pleasure out of. And from there it is easy to realize.

The MORAL:-

All things lead to destruction. Good things for good end, bad things for maybe worst, miserable end.

My advise:-

First and foremost get out of things and get on with your path whatever it maybe, probably you will and one should make changes as life progresses. But don't deviate from it, it gives meaning to your life and what more could a person ask for??

I am beginning to carve out my path, I may make some mistakes but there is one mistake I am not willing to make at any cost. ---- When you realize the value of semen, you won't waste it at any cost.
The new chapter begins.....

runner0424 · Dec 15, 2020

Here is my journey and some things I have learned that could possibly help:

I relapsed twice after 6 months Or so when I thought I had it beat. I’m currently 10 months and 4 days free from that relapse. It had been A struggle for 17 years in my life. I’m also married with 3 kids.

I have learned a lot in my struggle with porn. One, is what triggers me. A lot on the internet and tv triggered me(seeing beautiful women). I believe my last relapse was super bowl halftime show, I didn’t relapse that night, but like a week or two after it, but those images stayed with me. I had a very close call and was borderline at the beginning of December, but I seemed to have it under control and learned from it

I also researched And watched videos of the science behind it all and it releases dopamine In your brain and scary how the addiction get you when I thought I could control it.

the ways I feel like I have conquered it for good was that I had my wife put in an adult filter password that I don’t know what it is(it could be a friend if you are not married). It’s my backup plan when having a bad day and can’t see the adult sites. I also don’t watch shows that could trigger me and try to turn my head if I think a scene is coming. More importantly though, I have really grown in my faith with God. I have listened to so many sermons on temptations and that has helped me tremendously. Rick Warren and Greg Laurie are 2 of my favorites and have helped me a ton!! I learned about all the garbage I was putting in my mind. The analogy was how we have to watch what we eat, we can’t eat McDonald’s fried food every meal without bad consequences, the same thing applies with what you consistently put in your mind. We are trying to undo years and years of bad addictions and it takes time to undo that.
“Above Inspiration” YouTube videos are great too. Give them a listen, it’s usually 10-20 min long. A good quote I heard on sermon, “ a warrior might not win every battle, but they never stop fighting.”

Hopefully this helps and try and learn as much as possible and avoid whatever gets you tempted and triggered. make it a lifestyle change and don’t beat yourself up if you have a relapse. Just learn from it and keep trying to do better. Porn free radio podcast by Matt Dobschuetz
I also told myself , I would help as many people possible struggling with this as I could once when I got it under control.

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My path of lust dissolution.

VTheBang Fapstronaut

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