My Journey... Day 237

Day 211:

Been staying off social media, only have FB on my phone. Still so tempting though as advertisements pop up and it’s models in underwear & it’s just so tempting to sit and indulge. The only positive of seeing that stuff is you gain the mental strength and the power to discipline yourself by scrolling past it and not fixating on it.

I’ve stayed away from Instagram for last 2 weeks because although there’s posts on there that I want to view to further myself educationally, the temptations are too much for me and I slowly start to be lured back in and let my guard down with seeing images what are just gonna arouse me and do me no good.

So yeah, delighted to be at 211 days, will hit 7 months this coming Friday which I’m so happy about, time has flown since I first began this journey. I am also on a 7 day SR streak which I am hoping to maintain, never gone further than 16 days without O during this 211 days, so I’m hoping to get past that because I believe it will be very beneficial for my recovery.

 

Thanks Sergio, appreciate the kind words. It’s extremely difficult going against today’s trend (drinking alcohol & P/M) but I knew my life wasn’t going anywhere if I carried on with these addictions, obviously there’s a big gap between me stopping the 2, as originally I thought alcohol was the cause of all my internal & external issues, but I suppose quitting alcohol cleared the brain fog sufficiently enough for me to understand that P/M had to go for me to be happier in life. Good luck on your journey, please do reply and inform me how you’re getting on.

 

I’ll check it out

 

Day 214 a.k.a 7 MONTHS!

Can’t believe I’ve reached 7 months of no p*rn & masturb*tion!! I remember the day I began this journey like it was yesterday, it’s absolutely flown!

When I compare the way I feel now to how I did the day I started, the changes are ten fold. Most importantly for me, my mental health has significantly improved, for so long I have battled with that inner voice & purposely done things physically/mentally to ‘punish’ myself because of the external war I have had with myself.

Not anymore though, it’s as if I’m at peace with that voice now, & that’s all down to quitting artificial soul destroying bullshit what we should not see in the first place.

I’ve been addicted since age 11, so 7 months isn’t gonna fully heal me but within this time I have made huge strides towards a more happy and fulfilling life, I’m back on track with my career aspirations, I’m back doing hobbies I love after a long lay off, I’m more happier, committed, determined, focused, disciplined, and present every day.

Don’t get me wrong, I still have my bad days, heck, I’ve just had a 3 week ‘bad day’ but I never once thought about returning to P/M because that isn’t the answer, it never has been.

Time to really kick on now, still got a long road ahead but it’s one I’m enthusiastic about and one I will embrace.

A P/M free life is a great one folks!

 

Day 223:

Hows it going people. Not posted for a bit because there’s not much to report on. Still going strong, having a pretty chilled out Christmas not been to gym or anything because I just want to relax and play video games. Not had much urges for P/M, the urges only come when I browse social media and something arousing pops up & I seem to scroll through social media because I’m bored so I need to find something to keep me occupied.

I’m still struggling with PE, my penis is so sensitive to my girls vagina so I’m having to compensate with more foreplay to make it a more lasting/better experience for her. Does anyone have any advice on how to fix this because it’s so frustrating and makes sex a shitty experience for myself.

 

Thank you for the kind words!