30+ days second experience

So, here I am. I completed 30+ days NoFap, my second longest streak and my second actual nofap attempt either. I don't really consider it a success, just a starting point.

A little background
My longest streak in 2019 was 65 days and it failed because I had sex, couldn't orgasm (I've always suffered from DE and death grip) during sex. Therefore, due to the chaser effect and sheer disappointment, I started fapping again even if much less than before. However, due to covid19 quarantine all the challenges of this year, in February/March I went back to bad habits of fapping a lot (edging for hours even). Also, I got hooked on porn much more than ever before (never was I actually addicted but in 2020 I have been quite close too).
As I wrote in another post, I did much damage to myself because of prone masturbation. Since I was a child up until I was a young adult. Fortunately, already starting from 15/16 yo I've progressively replaced it with standard masturbation, otherwise I would probably have ED, instead of "just" DE/death grip. My prone masturbation technique was lying down on my stomach, pressing my flaccid penis flat against a hard surface. Then, moving back and forth to orgasm. No wonder why my nerves got numb. I didn't even get an erection. I would do that even 3/4 times a day as a teenager because I could do it without undressing myself, less risk of being caught.
Haven't actually had ED but I noticed that my erection has always been just 80%/90% of its potential. Still not that bad, but I was getting worse. During summer 2020 many times I couldn't even get hard touching myself.

Going back to my nofap journey, I'm doing this to overcome DE/death grip once and for all. I can tell you it can destroy long term relationships exactly as ED does. Besides, I want to become the better version of myself. I'm over 30, I want a healthy relationship. I'm quite good-looking, smart, and have no financial problems. I couldn't waste my life any longer. Therefore, my goals is not 90, that is just a milestone. My goal is "for my entire life".

Getting to the nitty-gritty of what I'm experiencing.

I feel more energetic when working out, still I'm quite sleepy and lethargic. Got a morning wood just once. During my nofap journey last year I was much hornier after 30 days, also I kept having morning woods. This says a lot to the damage porn has done to my brain in just a few months. I'm still flatlining after one months, whereas one year ago I was horny as hell. However, it's not completely negative since I have no urges now. Never have I been tempted to watch any kind of porn. It makes me sick to think about how much I've masturbated and all the porn I've watched this year. It's just pathetic.
Despite the flatline (in the 10 first days I actually had frequent headaches, stomach ache and flu-like symptoms), I've got much more confidence. When talking to other people, I stare into their eyes. I'm not as socially awkward as I used to be these past months. My voice is a little deeper and my posture more masculine. One of the best things is that I feel and think I really am much more handsome with brighter eyes and innocence written all over my face. I look much younger as I were a 20 something boy. My muscles are more defined and also it seems to me I have healthier and more robust hair. My penis looks bigger in size, probably because the blood flow has gotten better overall. Also, my dreams are more vivid and intense.
I've never experienced wet dreams in my entire life, but now dreams are getting somehow more erotic. I've also started meditating and learning a new language. Keep yourself busy. Diet is important as well: less sugary, unhealthy food.
So far so good. I'll keep doing no PMO, hard mode. Next time I orgasm, it'll be when having sex PIV.

I can recommend anyone to do nofap and, if possible, semen retention. Benefits are real. For me I don't really have a choice there. The question I've been asking myself was: do you want to have a healthier, more productive, intense, in short better life? Or do you want to cry over your DE, lost opportunities etc. instead, getting worse everyday?
Porn is pure madness, it's just wasting the most important thing we have: time. To masturbation I'd apply the same words. If you did PMO and your sexual life is not ideal, more likely than not is due to porn, masturbation or either of them. Just stop. Instead prone masturbation, especially dry humping when your dick is flaccid, is self-destructive and could cause almost permanent damages. I was saved in a way since I gave it up completely since at least 6 years, still I got quite severe DE and desensitization (just orgasms through HJ and BJ). Do yourself a favour. Just stop now. Go to a therapist if you can't, but stop.

 

oh, I'm sorry to hear. Prone really hurts you. I managed to have normal sex intercourses with girls just because I've replaced prone with standard. Yet, because of prone, or death grip or both, I ended up with less sensitivity and severe DE (at least when it comes to PIV). I wanna stop PMO for good, just as I stopped prone years ago. We can do that. I suggest you at least 90 days abstinence from PMO. If you're not able, at least try to give up prone. That should be your main objective now.

 

you mean quit prone M? Back then I wasn't aware that was that damaging. It came natural to replace it with the more standard way to do it. Prone M they way I used to do it also required to be in a flaccid state Hence, it was at odds with being aroused.

 

Hi there,
I mean. I stopped prone since many years and since I stopped I've had sexual intercourses with women which were successful because I didn't have ED, yet I've always had DE. Don't know of DE is mostly due to my "prone masturbation history" or to many years of standard masturbation with death grip. Also, I used to edge for quite a lot and that's no good. When with a woman, I'm quite close to orgasm but never been able to conclude. It's like the grip and the pace are not enough for me to orgasm.
I beat prone, now I'm beating masturbation addiction. Porn has never been an issue, except this year. Of course, I'm not gonna watch it ever again. Hope that this works. I don't have real physical issues as I am able to orgasm from HJ and BJ.

Aside from that, I'm doing NoFap to improve myself in any possible way, not just sexually.

 

Have you already done almost 150 days no PMO? If so, I assume you have stopped prone masturbation and you should be almost rebooted. May I ask you if you have DE as well?