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Year Five: The Tradition (Pandemic Edition)

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Dodgerschokedagain, Nov 25, 2020.

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    DAY NINETEEN:
    Well “school” was boring and I couldn’t even get into class for some of the day, but I still made it through the day fine in general and NoFap-wise. I’m even beginning to finally begin my college applications for real and I’m planning on having them done in nine days, so I’ll be busy coming up. Day twenty has been a perfect day, and I’d like to keep it that way, so I wanna bring the good momentum into tomorrow.
     
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    DAY TWENTY:
    Well I made it through today but I can’t focus on anything and I still feel like shit. I really need to buckle down right now as I have literally eight days to get most of my college application stuff done, I’m unbelievably stressed and I can’t focus.

    With that in mind, it’s possible that I take a break from the challenge until my college applications are all submitted, hopefully that happens within the next ten days, as my guidance counselor says I should do them within the next eight days, so if I can’t focus and it’s because of my edging, sorry, my college applications are more important than the challenge, I hope it doesn’t come to that though.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-ONE:
    I relapsed last night but I got back up on the horse today and it felt better, I’m just trying to get by, I felt better today than yesterday but I’m still really stressed out. I’m hoping that things get better soon.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-TWO:
    Well today I relapsed again, but only because I literally couldn’t focus on working on my college application. This unfortunately may have to be the norm for the next six days, but if I just stop edging, then it won’t have to be. It’s all on me.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-THREE:
    Well I know I’m a little late but I passed out last night. I made it through the day and am going strong now, I’m gonna be skiing today so it’a another busy day.

    As the final week of the challenge begins, I’m gonna try and get things done and keep up with the challenge. It could be difficult, but I’ll pull through, after all, it’s only one more week.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-FOUR:
    So I made it through today but now the urges are getting pretty bad, I don’t know if I’ll make it through the night, but I hope I do and I’m able to have a strong finish. Let’s get it.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-FIVE:
    I relapsed overnight but I kept busy enough all day that it didn’t happen again. Now I’m back home and the final phase of the challenge is upon me. Three more days of “school” then the Christmas holiday, and then it’s over. I wanna finish strong this year.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-SIX:
    Sorry I’m a little late but I passed out last night. So I relapsed again on accident last night. The edge monster got me again, but I’m doing fine now and am currently in “class”.

    I generally consider the first four days (all of which are a part of Thanksgiving Break) and the final four days to be the opening and closing days. So it’s now to the point where the challenge is winding down, and while there were painful moments, some good things happened. The circumstances may have been tough, but I am currently on a better pace than last year, which is great, I just gotta finish strong.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-SEVEN:
    Sorry I’m a little late again but I couldn’t get to doing the journal last night. I relapsed again though, because I was really depressed yesterday after hearing that they extended the school closure by fifteen days because we all know that it won’t be fifteen days it’ll probably be another fifteen months, and then another, etc.

    All the progress I made in the previous ten days was immediately wiped out at this news. I feel just like I did back on day nine when I was depressed out of my mind. I can’t keep living like this.

    Christmas is gonna be shit this year and there’s nothing I can do about it, but I’ll try to finish strong now.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-EIGHT:
    It was another rough day NoFap wise, but mentally I felt a little bit better at least. I still feel depressed, but it’s manageable.

    Now with only two days left, I gotta keep rolling and finish strong, let’s go.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-NINE:
    Well today I didn’t edge at all, for the first time since literally day one, but unfortunately, beyond NoFap, today sucked as usual.

    2020 is probably gonna be the first year where I spend Christmas Eve and Christmas Day feeling depressed. In 2014 my worst bout of depression had been gone for over two months by Christmas and it was my favorite Christmas ever (and the last one that I believed in Santa for) while in 2018 it took a break for Christmas and then came back for one last go around in the following days before going away when 2019 began.

    I hope it’s better tomorrow, and I hope I keep up this strong finish.
     
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    DAY THIRTY:
    So we’ve reached the end of the challenge again, it’s been quite the year, but here we are, and I feel like while this year’s NoFap challenge was pretty shitty, there were lessons learned, and hopefully next year the challenge happens under better circumstances. It’ll be different for sure, because I’ll be in college, but I’ll find a way.

    So today was better than yesterday, but it still was worse than a usual Christmas, but it wasn’t a bad day. NoFap was easy today, I just goofed off once I opened presents so it was all good.

    As we come to the end of another year, I’ll remind everyone that I will be back for probably two days for postseason updates, but after that, I won’t be here until the end of next year. I’ll see you all again on November 25, 2021, and have a wonderful 2021, hope it isn’t as shitty as this year was.
     
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    UPDATE: It’s currently 12:05 AM and you guys know what that means, the challenge is over. Thank you all for a great year and I’ll see you next year.
     
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    DAY THIRTY-ONE:
    I’m readjusting to the postseason now, it’s weird, but I’m getting there. I know you guys might not like that it’s over, but this is a festive thing. Anyways, it was a decent day, onto tomorrow.
     
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    DAY THIRTY-TWO:
    So I’m beginning to return to the pre-challenge routine again, and it’s weird, but I’m adjusting.

    This might be my last entry for the year, and if it is, then thank you to everyone, and I’ll see you on November 25, 2021. Peace out.
     
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    DAY THIRTY-THREE:
    I went skiing today, and I’m just getting by. I’m kinda just waiting for Friday at this point when 2020 is over, but I have to buckle down and apply to college before then, so it’s go time. Adjustment is still weird but it’s becoming normal again.
     
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    DAY THIRTY-FOUR:
    I’m continuing to adjust, things are feeling more normal, and I’m continuing to prepare for 2021, onto tomorrow.
     
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    DAY THIRTY-FIVE:
    Today was a normal day I’d say. I’m still adjusting but I’m still struggling to get work done. My mind is spinning. Onto tomorrow, the LAST DAY of this terrible year.
     
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    DAY THIRTY-SIX:
    Happy almost 2021 and good riddance to 2020 in just a few minutes! I’m continuing to adjust to the time off well, and at the end of the day tomorrow it’ll be one week into the postseason.

    One closing announcement for 2020 is that my family is planning on having Thanksgiving in May and Christmas in June, and if that happens season five and a half could be in the works, and it would probably be between May 27 and June 25, and have the same length as this challenge, but on the opposite end of the year. Hopefully all goes well and that happens, because it would be very interesting to see how a May and June version of the challenge, as that’s my favorite time of year, in comparison to November and December which is usually worse, we’ll have to see what happens. Happy New Year!
     
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    DAY THIRTY-SEVEN:
    Happy 2021! I’m late, but that’s because I was doing my college applications last night, fingers crossed! Right now I’m just gonna keep rolling along.
     

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