The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 0:Orc

 

Day 61.

The lack of routine and sleep, plus the alcohol and some stress for the gatherings, are putting me close to finally watching P. These last days I sense that mental fog returned to me, but today I feel better and know that I must reinforce my defenses. I´m trying to avoid electronic devices and continue doing exercise and working as normally, and I think that it has good results.

I think that if you didn´t voluntarily provoked that, it wasn´t a relapsed. I know that it´s weird but, for that very reason, you won´t have it again or in a long time. It´s important that you do not allow it to influence you to relapse, because the body may feel that way, believe that you have not broken the frequency of vice and bring the irrational impulses to relapse which we sense when we have a period of abstinence. Be careful in the next days.

St. Agnes of Rome, pray for us!

 

I have relapsed again. This time I just haven't felt serious about doing NoFap and am wasting my nights away. I don't know why I suddenly changed. I seriously need a kick up the butt. I've been really slack recently.

 

Just remember about Americans fight with native Indians using alcohol and tobacco, as well as Hitlers plans to deal with inferior races and you surely catch the connection.

 

I have made it... I am a dwarf now!!!! day 50! Getting bored and urges feel like they might appear so I'm going to meditate and sleep! I feel like this week... or this year... a breakthrough might appear! See you tomorrow!

 

Checking in !
1)Meditate-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower-done
5)Follow trigger prevention plan-done
6)Get occupied.Work on your hobbies and dreams-done
7)Practice physical exercise-done
8)Eat healthy-done
9)Sleep well-done
10)NA-done
11)AEFF - you can notice them ot of what you speak to yourself through the day if you are vigilant enough

 

Just imagine you have started to build a house for your new family and then you smashed it into pieces for the sake of feeling a new beginning and you do it again and again and again.What about you family and your life do you think you are immortal,do you think they gonna wait you forever ?

 

Day 4.

 

Day 0. I'm consistently doing better than I was a few months ago, but now I have to give everything to try and break past day 7

 

Day 0
I'm an orc now. I just couldnt control myself. But I want to look at the bright side of the process, I've made it almost 40 days! The new year is gonna be my year!

 

2 Days here.

Worked out this morning, then had a decent lunch and shoveled some snow.

Still working on figuring some things out. I'll see if I can articulate it here once I have figured it out.

 

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I am fooling myself with this nofap thing. I want to do it but I can't. I feel so sad now that I decide it but can't make it. I know it's important but I leave it for porn. I am addicted to porn and doing nofap for now 5 years now but unable to keep up a one week streak. I am binging after every relapse. It's like I have no control over me. This is the last time I am going to try it if I don't make it then I am dropping the whole thing off.

 

Did you have a really hard poop, because that can stimulate the prostate and cause the release of semen without masturbation? I know that it has happened to me before. Additionally, there have been times where I felt really horny, but it turned out I just needed to poop because my bowels were stimulating my prostate, and once I had the bowel movement, some semen came out and I no longer felt turned on. I sometimes think that some of my urges come from me having a full bladder or full bowels and thus being super sensitive down there, and once I use the bathroom, I am able to return clear headed.

If you were not masturbating or even thinking erotic thoughts, it was probably just the fact that you had to use the restroom and that itself is not a wet dream waking or not. You may even have felt like you had an orgasm, because certain bodily functions can do that including the bathroom if you really had to go.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Day 0 for another hour forty minutes. I asked a woman out that I really liked, last night, but in the interim it took for her to look at my message and respond, I decided that I could not take the anxiety and I PMO'd. I know where I went wrong and I am determined to get clean again, as my goal is to make it to the New Year and beyond in Hard Mode. Come midnight New Year's Eve/New Year's Day, I will be a little more than three days clean, and that my friends is just a starting point. The next goal is to make it to next Monday, then the Wednesday of the following week, and then to January 28th at 8PM when I will finally match my longest stint clean. Then life will begin anew as every day afterward will be a new record. However, before I get ahead of myself, I am not even one day clean, so I need to take this slow and carefully.

(Also, the woman turned me down, but I swear that being turned down was more of a relief than the porn I did because I was scared about her answer)

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Day 163

 

3 days

 

Day 4.

 

Day 23 complete.

@Ciceron @Mathman1994 Thank you for your replies. I'm still not sure what the heck happened but I won't let it get into my head. No PMO for me!

Emptiness is a big part of the rebooting process. When you take all the time and energy away from PMO, you need to fill them up with something else! Learning a new skill or hobby helps. You can celebrate the new beginning of each and every day when you're PMO free.

Consider this your kick up the butt! None of us want to see you go through this pain, and I'm sure your wife doesn't either. We all want what's best for you and PMO IS NOT IT!

@Valier(|[{<=>}]|) Please don't give up! No matter how hard the fight is, as long as you're still fighting, you are winning. PMO wins when you stop fighting. What are all the things you've tried to break your addiction? Is there anyone you could talk to IRL who might be able to help?

 

Day, 70, I’m a Warrior now. Lets keep
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