The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Thanks for sharing your story with us brother ! This shows that looking at improper materials doesn't go without consequences and small things do accumulate into a huge temptation force if they are not dealt with immediately.Please stay away from binging keep checking in on tips especially on 1&3. You'll be back on the wagon in no time at all.

 

Checking in !
'Tips' followed:
1)Meditate-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot -done
4)Take cold showers-done
5)Follow a trigger prevention plan-done
6)Get occupied.Work on your hobbies and dreams-done
7)Practice physical exercise-done
8)Eat healthy-done
9)Sleep well-did my best but I just lay in bed all night without falling asleep.It started from the moment I switched off lights and went to bed. Dirty pics started jumping into my mind forcefully to fight them I started praying to the Lord when stopped praying and look at my watch it appeared I spent about 3 hours praying got into some sort of ecstatic mood and was crying,twice was getting erections and had to stand up and stand on the tips of my on the tips of my toes whilst praying Lords prayer to extinguish lust's temptations, I prayed most of the nightand rest lay in silence,or counting backwards trying to fall asleep.Thought about the Lord's will as in the step 11 of AA and about meaning of -Our father who art in heaven....,got some answers to my prayers through the day.

 

Day 1

I feel like I got doubly rejected by the woman I asked out, because I asked her how she was and she said she was okay, so I sought clarification. That was a bad idea because she snapped at me for not respecting her need for space. That was very confusing because all she asked for was that I not make things weird, which I took to mean that she just wanted to go back to how it was. And how it was is that we were chatting everyday, and I was not doing anything different than I would before, the only difference being was that she knew I was interested in her. However, the good news is that despite this stressful situation, I did not turn to P, P-sub, or MO. So that was nice. I am not sure we are friends anymore which sucks because I enjoy here company even in a non-romantic way, but as one of my friends said (a friend I had asked out months ago but it only made our friendship stronger), the woman I just asked out might have had a bad experience in the past with a guy who was interested in her and who she did not reciprocate, and that she may have hoped I did not want to be friends anymore, and when I said I did, it caught her off guard. Anyway, I am not talking to her at the moment, but I will get through this,

Best,
Mathman1994

 

On day 21 feeling good.
I'm starting to have a lot of porn fantasies in my head.
It's weird because I haven't been watching any sort of porn.
What should I do?

 

Day 164

 

Checking in for the path to White Wizard. This challenge is an innovative way for people to relate to something they like. I love LOTR, reminds me of a happier time and it's a franchise that made me dream a lot.

 

4 days

 

Day 3,

All is well. A bit tense with the consultation tomorrow but I have a friend here tonight to keep me company and away from resetting.

Best to all!

 

Day 5.

 

You are 53. If you've been fighting it for 5 years, you've been doing it for at least that long or longer. I presume that you have been struggling with it for perhaps even longer than I've been alive. If you quit, you do me and the rest of us juniors a disservice! Don't give up! Our wills are corrupted and the strength to quit doesn't come from within us but from God.

Your age is also a credit to you though! How many men at your age wouldn't even bother to change their ways, and here you are fighting the good fight for 5 years and you want to just give up? That pisses me off. Don't fucking do it. Give yourself some credit and keep trying. For the love of God.

 

Check in

 

That's the spirit!

 

You will have many more nights like that. At least, that's usually when it hits me the worst. At night. It's natural for these things to pop into our heads but the important thing is not to give in. An exsmoker will think about smoking all the time, especially early on, but as long as they aren't smoking they're still quitting. So don't entertain fantasies, try to think of something else or distract yourself from it, even if you lose some sleep over fighting it. We were not made for sleep and addiction, but life and freedom.

 

Day 247. The days are going by fast. Not just in terms of rebooting, although to be sure they are in that regard too.

The difference between a streak of 10 days and 20 days is significant, but it doesn't feel all that much different between 227 days or 247. We must be on guard against apathy, myself especially. Not just when it comes to rebooting but to my faith as well for me.

 

Back to day 0 and being a filthy orc. The spell of PMO is strong in me!

There was no porn or any kind of outside stimulus involved this time, just me and my brain. I can already feel urges to turn this into a binge, but I'm determined that it will only be a reset.

I'm particularly ashamed of this one because it's not as though I was overwhelmed by urges or stress to the point where it felt like I couldn't fight anymore. I just didn't put up a fight to begin with. I easily could have stopped it if I wanted to, but...a big part of me deliberately didn't want to stop. I had been thinking about masturbating for a couple hours prior and at some point I thought, Yeah, why not, I'm going to do it. It was a scary realiztion. Arresting. It's like I completely forgot all the reasons I've been waging this war.

Almost the second it was over, I felt terrible. Not just psychologically, though there was plenty of that, but in very concrete physical ways. The brain fog came over me like a tsunami and I could barely form a coherent thought. All my energy seemed to go right out of me as though someone sucked it out with a straw, to the point that I had to lean against the wall to keep myself upright for the duration of the shower I took afterward. It was...ridiculous, and horrible. A very strong wake-up call to the consequences of PMO and the benefits of NoFap.

To everyone else who's fallen recently, let's get back to business together! Here's to a happy, productive, and successful New Year.

 

Thanks for saying this bro! Yess, let´s get this!

 

You're absolutely right, thanks man!

 

On Day 25 -- started listening to podcasts and am well into the book I've reading about defeating ego; now I'm reflecting on my mindset and focusing on developing myself as a person.

 

Check-in for day 1!

1- Meditate: check, every day from now on using an accountability app called 'atom'.
2- Stay accountable daily: check.
3- Study about the reboot: check. I believe someone here recommended this as well, which I will study from now on till finished: SPAM REMOVED (spam code #001) - REPORT TO MODERATION
4- Take cold showers: check.
5- Challenge daily your excuses to PMO: check, no more grey areas.
6- Follow a triggers prevention plan: check.
7- Get occupied. Work in your hobbies and dreams: check.
8- Practice physical exercise: check.
9- Eat healthy: check.
10- Sleep well: check.

Happy new year to all and wishing everyone the best on their NoFap journey in 2021!

 

Day 23. Feeling good today. My urges are no longer as strong as they were a couple of days ago. The more I focus my mind and do not dwell on fantasies the easier it is to fight the urges.