The Lord of the Rings Challenge

I fall. back as an orc again. but i'm not going to give myself up, i will destroy that ring with the help of God

 

I, too, am back to being an Orc. Time to start over!

 

Thanks Buddy I'll definitely give it a try, lots of love

 

Day 8.

 

Day 0,

Reset

 

Day 168..

 

Day 03

 

Check in

 

Well as I see it little monster in you wants you to stay away from stay away from brotherhood, because spark of enlightenment on its own tend to get exhausted,extinguished and dies while if you keep passing your spark not just once to others you'll strengthen your own enlightenment and make it permanent. Remember that the God's Will is in the highest good for everyone so just do what brings highest good for everyone the way you understand it.
p.s. Here,there anywhere little monster will tell you that it is still there. It's like weekend relapse when people are afraid to stay on their own. The solution to this problem is that you have to be willing to die in order to live,willing to die for sin in order to live in righteousness ,so that when the evil thought or feeling comes it find's you dead for sin and living the way you think and feel is right,decent and for the highest goo of everyone involved.

 

and 12

 

Day 3 complete.

I spent most of the day (up until about 4pm) out with my family on a hike in a park not too far from our house. That was good for killing urges but man am I tired. I also wound up with a big headache late in the afternoon; for those two things combined I decided to take a hot shower tonight even though I normally save those only for the days when I run. Still, a good day.

To the folks stepping away for a while, it was a pleasure to meet you and spend this time with you, and I wish you all the best on your continuing journeys.

@Cartographer @DudeAlex How are you guys doing now? Have you had some time to reflect on the circumstances of your resets?

 

We like your honesty and persistence, but for your own benefit and the benefit of the brothers please describe the circumstances that drove you into temptation,how it happened and what you learned from it to avoid it happening again.

 

Please confess to brotherhood the circumstances of you downfall and what you learn to avoid it in the future.

 

Day 25

 

Checking in on Day 28.

 

Checking in Day 3.
My wife has had 3 days off work so I've been seeing my mind in the right places and having a good time together. The challenges come when I'm at home by myself late at night.

 

Day 211.

Seem to be getting through the rough spell and feeling focused and clear again.

Up until now, I’ve experienced periods of increasing levels of anger, during my PMO free journey, which has led to a rise in blame towards others for the circumstances of my life.

But now, I feel that I’ve broken through this anger and been able to assume a greater level of responsibility for my life. This is a tremendous gift, and I feel staying on this PMO free journey has provided an opportunity to overcome some deeper issues with anger and blame that were driving the PMO behavior.

I know this is an ongoing journey and there will be more challenges ahead, but I feel this is the true gift of the PMO free journey-
The opportunity to face our deeper issues and overcome them. I realize it’s not just time that heals us, but our willingness to face the deeply uncomfortable feelings of our core issues so we may learn from them as well as grow through them and OVER them.

I owe so much to my support group I recently joined. We meet on Zoom.

Best wishes to everyone for a successful 2021!

 

What you have shared here holds a mirror up to what I'm experiencing currently. Best wishes to you, as well.

 

Thank you @crazyhorse11 !

I've seen a few people announce their intentions to leave this group because of the SPAM REMOVED (spam code #001) - REPORT TO MODERATION Method book. I feel a responsibility to address that because I recommended it without much context. Just the fact that this forum auto-corrects the title from what it really is shows that someone has already struggled with it.

The SPAM REMOVED (spam code #001) - REPORT TO MODERATION Method book was a fantastic way to change my mindset and quit porn. Once you've read it, you've quit porn! Before reading it, I'd basically been in agony every day, wincing at every little bump in the road, wondering if that would be the new cause of my next slip. I read through the book in a day, and was happy and clean for the longest time I can remember. It's incredibly freeing.

However, it doesn't speak much about recovery. I like the term "recovery" specifically for a reason. Eventually, my decade-plus of old conditioning re-asserted itself. I realized that even though I had escaped, I hadn't fully recovered from the damages porn had caused in my life (inside and out), leaving me more susceptible to falling into that trap again. Recovery is the work and pain of growth beyond breaking free. It's an active, disciplined pursuit of deeper joys of life that can't coexist with a practice that's proven to be harmful to you.

To me, this challenge is about reminding myself daily that I am recovering and rebuilding my soul. Each new day is a reward, and a reminder that this journey matters to me. I have 4 months of constant effort behind me, with many slips. That is my journey, not the number below my username. This forum is a "challenge" to grow beyond my old conditioning in a way far beyond what I have constrained myself to in the past. The counter is just a reminder that my actions have consequences.

@RiseToGreatness I'll miss you, and wish you peace and inner strength in your journey ahead. Thank you for starting this group and making me a hobbit! It's been an inspiration for me. I'd welcome you back any time.

 

Day 26. I have been oversleeping and can't seem to break this cycle. Prior to this reboot I always woke up at 6 am. Recently I have been sleeping in until 8 which means that I have been getting 10 hours of sleep a night. I'm not sure why this would be. My mind seems to be craving sleep to a degree that I have never felt before.